its been long!

well hellos! first post aft sooooo long!
and its the first of november!

its already been the 2nd week of sch le!
been boring!
but had funny moments and crazy moments.
MASTER TAN! ahahha! jokes jokes!

soo yah.
but overall!
boring lectures.
boring times. sooo sleepy!
and s&w sport sucks! FML!
of all. street soccer.
lanjiao.. sian lahh.
thou i play soccer.
but i dun wanna be in that for s&w lah!
want smth else!
like tennis!
or volleyball!
sian!
nvm loh...
just go there own those ppl!
YUPS. haha

hmm..
then yahh.
everyday sian lah.
nth do.
go sch come home.
boring.
everybody like dun go out anywhere de..
so go home orh.
nth do.

i needa join another cca!
get more life aft sch!
and meet even more ppl!
lucky got BEGV!
i like goin for the events!
meet ppl.
get cca pts.
then quite okay.
soo yah! =D

hmm..
sooo now..
oohh! i found out habbo merged!
with all the uk us canada and all.
singapore also.
hardcore man!
now habbo all corrupted.
people having cybersex!

one thing abt cybersex.
a gay can pretend to be a girl and you are "fucking" a guy actually. hahaha!
jokes!
thats why!
never play cybersex! =D

sooo.. yea.
i dunno wad to say anymore...
ooh!
friday no sch! wooo!
which means!
early soccer!
and means we can end soccer earlier!
cause night so many ppl we dunno come!
esp that grp!
walao!
basket always come here play.
lanjiao..
sian one !

hmm..
soo then yah.
my eye ahh.
still blur blur vision.
but it seems like getting abit better.
hopefully will heal by next week..

well..
and know wad i want now?
i wanna oversea penpal!
soooooooo cool!
i think i'm gonna have one soon! =D
shall find one! hahaha!

and i needa have a electric guitar!
like seriously!
that classical is seriously CMI!
no hope already.
need smth better!
alot better!
ooohh and i needa get my drum sticks!
for that performance in nov i think.
wait.
its already november!
ohh shit!

hmm..
i wonder if the performance is still on..
hopefully so!
i wanna play in that show!
drummer! \m/!
hope dun screw up!
if screw up i will be damn paisehh uhh!
infront of a crowd.

well..
so then..
nth to do now..
i needa study .
shall study on sat and sun.
write notes for the new modules.
sooo when exams come i dun have to rush notes .
and can use the time to get stuffs into my head!

i dun wanna get a 2.6gpa anymore for next sem!
i want at least a 3.4!
i dunno why i cannot get a A man!
this sucks uhh!
lanjiaooooo.

soo yah.
FML!

bye!

life still sucks.

~~eugeneN~~

suicide.

well.
i feel fucking fucked up now.
and everything is bottomed up inside me.
i have nowhere else to turn to.
the only place i can say everything out is on my fb .
and twitter.
but this leads to everyone seeing them.
sooo i've come to my blog.
where not many cares.
well nobody cares in the first place.

and i would like to say.
i aint tryin to get any fucking attention.
i aint tryin to get any sympathy from anyone.
i just wanna fucking say wad i feel.
cause this life just seriously fucking sucks.

i dunno where to begin.
but basically. it all starts from family.
this family sucks.
i dun have a proper family.
i always see friends with sucha nice family.
where the parents bother to care.
the parents gives allowance.
pay for lessons.
they cook or just put food on the table.
so you survive.

but wad do i get in this family?
no father.
actually is a father who fucking laze arnd doing nth.
and fooling with women.
and now he is out of my life.
but how i wish.
i always wish.
i had a dad.
a dad who cares.
a dad who loves.

and wad abt my mum?
she changed totally ever since my fucking dad gone.
its like a recoil.
she got rid of a fucking man.
and here comes a fucking woman.
she dun even cares if we have food to eat.
she borrows money and dun fucking return.
and in due time she just dun care anymore.
wtf.
seriously. wtf.

thisishowFUCKEDUPthisfamilyis.

i see everyone.
they dun even have to worry.
when they get home.
they have food.
they have the parents love they need.

me?
i have got nth.
no dad.
and a mum who dun cares abt out livelihood.

how i wish.

='(

i'm damn emotional noww. sheesh.
i'm thinking alot.
theres also more prob in my life.
but..

~~eugeneN~~

screwed up hair!! >=((

i hate my hair now.
and i've decided!
to go cut it short once i get my pay!
shorter i meant.
cut like secondary sch days once again.
i cant stand my hair now.
damn ugly.
nabei that guy dunno how cut one!

cut till the sides so thick lidat.
then never help me thin down my hair.
i look like some girl.
butch.
serious.

gonna go trim it.
and grow my hair out again.
keep fringe. keep mullet.
short sides.
then rebong fringe. done.

soooo for now.
cut my hair shorter!
at a BETTER SALOON!
bad choice.
ooohh wells..

anyways.
life's not good in everyways.
dun ask.
cause i dunno too.

i need more money!
sis went overseas.
i cant get my pay!! siannn!
but i worked ytd and today.
sooo yah.
increasing money resources. haha!
jokes jokes.
and you owe me 300bucks!
return me!
sheeshhh.

so then..
tmrw got tour guide training!
i'm lazy to go.
but i'm still goin!
only half a day.
soo yah.
lunch somemore!
mac! =DD
thats the main reason why i signed up for it! ahhaa!
so cheapo lah! ahha

hmm..
then yah.
thurs mayb got steamboat dinner?
hopefully.
i wanna eat!
i'm sooo deprived of food.
and friday shld be usual soccer days.
i hope that guy dun come.
come then bring so many ppl come.
gao dao need so many teams then wait so long.
then team with all the solo kia.
jitao sian please!

and yyaahh!
and a shoutout to RACHAEL! hellos!

and ROYETTE! hey man! i'm damn lazy to tag your blog. hahaha!
goodlucks for O's!

and that brings me to giving goodlucks to everyone taking their exams!
EOY.
Nlevels.
Olevels.
Alevels? haha
but yah.
goodlucks guys and girls. =D

soo yah.
i'm always tempted to go steal at ntuc again.
but i resisted. and think of bad karma.
then i just walk past to int. ahahah!
well.
good job for having a strong mind! xD

soo for now.
wads my wish?
i want a guitar!
new a electric guitar.
jackson guitars. ESP,LTD
GIBSON SG!
i love lightweighted guitars.
=DD
but i dun have a electric.
i mean i do have one at home.
but its sooooo heavy!
and we dun have an amp.
and its my bro one. soo yeap.
wont you fulfill my wish?? haha
fat hope.
wait. i am fat!

okayyy.
i'm like talking to myself.
sheesshhh.
time to get a life.
play fifa.
HAHAHHA!
wad life??!?
shit..
i'm weird.
i wanna cut my hair.
next week.
most likely.
go back red hill there cut?
or mayb downstairs.
better than MRT STATIONS SALOON!

fuck! _l_
okay.
i shld stop talking to myself.
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

wad to do with this life? =/

well hellos!
its been longggg since i blogged!
and guess wad i'm into recently??!!
the paranormal. yeap yeap!

hmm.. sooo
have been watching alot of ghost adventures!
and they are by far the best paranormal investigators!
so true and raw!
taunting the spirits, demons. to make they appear
to show themselves.
thats just proof.
proof that these stuffs exists!

and they lockdown inside a haunted building.
and start investigating.
damn cool!
3 guys only inside. no big crew.
thats just awesome yea?! ahah

and i wanna form a paranormal investigation crew.
ahaha how cool?!
and we gonna get lockdown inside old haunted buildings in singapore for a start.
then mayb to malaysia.
cooool!
only risk i scared is!
they follow me home! haha!
they will just destroy your life.
which is baddddd!

soo yah.
but i still wanna do this.
start off with normal camsss.
and a crew.
of mayb 4 or lesser.
max only 4. dun want soooo many!
soo yah!
getting ppl to join me! =D

then mayb aft we have enugh money.
get some other equipments.
EVPs? EMF detector.
and that cooooool word database thingy!
love that gadget!
so darn cool!
you gotta watch ghost adventures to understand man! ahha

sooo..
now less of that paranormal stuffs.
and talk abit of wads been goin on.
in my life.
okay.
basically nth muchs. ahha!
plain slacking everyday ! EVERYDAY!
and soccer on fri and sat.
nth muchs!

but next week wed!
i have a event on!
wooo!
i'm not that excited actually.
i'm scared i'll be some loner. haha
siann!
cause i know nobody muchs at this cca thingy.
hope it'll be good.
make some new friends! ahha

well..
sooo then.
i have loads of dreams.
and its hard to achieve alot of them.
hopefully i do one day!
being a chef.
having my own shop/restaurant.
have my band running and going playing music.
and now.
paranormal investigations crew.
and my BIGGEST DREAM.
having my own Island.
i've said that many times. ahha !
sooo yeap!

hmm..
wad to type now??
i dunno. hahahah!

know wad i need right now??
love.

BYE.

~~eugeneN~~

i have nothing to lose if i died right now.

well..
i feel fucked up.
i dunno wad the fuck is wrong.
just fucked up.

shit everything.
i hate my life.
nothing is goin well.

i'm wasting life away.
no motivations in life.
no nothing in life.
i have nothing important.
nothing to treasure.
i can just leave this world now.
and have no regrets.

i'm a emo loner .
thats right.
thats wad i am.
and i like it.

and i need something to motivate me.
i need some kinda counselling.
or mayb just someone to talk to.
you know.
sims has needs.
social needs.
i need that too.
i needa talk to someone.
well.
but theres no one.

FML.

everything is so dead now.
i hope the world gets infested with zombies!
everyone turns to zombie!
i'll be fighting zombies! YAY!
so fun!
and the whole world mine!
cause everyone is a infested!
nice.

i like being alone.
but not too muchs.
i need social needs.

bye!

~~eugeneN~~

i really need a damn life!

well.
saw that my last post was last week.
soooo decided to just do a little update here.

hmm..
soo anyways .
hols now.
and its soo fucking boring!
nth to do everyday!
for once i would rather go sch!
sooo bored!

then yah.
everyday at home doin nth!
slack arnd.
play pes.
watch videos.
sleep at 5am.
wake up 2pm.
screwed up routine now.

really need a life!
need smth to do!
soo i have decided on smth!
shall run everyday!
but i doubt i'll keep to it. hahaha!
too lazy also!
fucked up life.

well..
now.
i'm lookin forward to nth.
everyday wake up.
nth to look forward to.
theres no motivation in life.
i just dunno wad to do with it.
hmm..
i really need a plan.
i wanna cook.
i wanna be a chef!
well.
just havin my own store.
selling food i cook!
how cool!

well.
keep dreaming!

fuck it.
dunno wad to type le.
i just wanna faster finish my sims 3 ambitions download!
then see if it can install with my sims 3.
hopefully sooo!

aft sims 3 ambitions.
mayb downloading world adventures too.
and then yah.
play.

wad a life i have.
really.
fucked up.
dun feel like living.
wanna die.
somebody kill me.
hope i die in my sleep.
i dun mind.
i have nth to look forward to.
no one to love.
i have no regrets if i die.

peace out.

~~eugeneN~~

my hair looks like shit right here!


biker gang! i like this photo! ahha


and of course! i like this photo best!
very nice!
cant see my eyes one! ahahha!

soo then.
yah those are the photos.
from the outing to ktv and east coast.
how cool! ahhaha

hmm..
sooo today had fico!
no time to cut my hair in the morning.
then went there.
and guess wad.
my hairband snapped into half.
basket.
played with my vision blurred by the hairssss!
sooo irritating!

goin for a cut tmrw morning!
thats if i manages to wake up early enugh tmrw!
cut le go soccer training.

hmm..
fico today.
not bad.
quite good.
my touches still sucks.
passes sucks.
shots sucks.
i suck.
i cant play.
thats the main pt.
trying to up my game.
tryin to improve.

hmm..
then yah.
aft that
went to fir hse!
for some hariraya visiting!
his family is lovely.
very nice ppl!
food was dope!
very nice!
and eat till damn full!
now still damn full!
can you imagine?! ahha

then yah.
watched white chicks there.
funny show.
then yah . talked talked here here.
then home!
went to int take 963 home.

ooohh one thing i gotta say!
i'm gettin stares from ppl.
cause of my hair.
i think.
but i'm very right abt stares from ppl!
see my hair.
covering my eyes.
very UNCOMMON meh?
sooo nice to stare?
but yah.
ppl keep look at me like got prob lidat.
my hair lah please.
but if you girl.
look uhh. hahahah!
dun mind.
i'm just smile back at you. =D ahahhaha!

sooo yah.
thats all i wanna say.
tmrw training!
sian! very tired!
ankle hurts.
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

i'm still dreaming!