its all abt you..

haiz..
alrights..
today was okay i guess..

hmm..
i was late today..
came to sch..
almost 8am le i reach..
and maryanne was there..
and she complainin .. say why i late..
tsk.. just cause she lazy do the latecomin thingy..
ahaha tsk loh! jokes jokes..

then yea..
its farewell mission day.
had the same misson grp since sec1 with us...
and its the last time.
hmm..
i had laughters.
i had a fun time.
and peaceful moments.
i thought i was gonna have a good day..

then..
aft that..
was in the canteen with boonsheng..
only he left with me..
then yea..
saw chan and tay.
so we sat with them and chill.
waited for phys ec.
then it was time and off we go..
did phys paper.. DUH!
then yea..
had bio..
borin as hell..
i slept before lesson start..
and i took my test..
it was okay. can do.
and i didnt even revise for it.. haha!
must be gettin some shit result.. haha!
nvm loh...
not much hope in bio anyways.. hmm..

then yea..
went to canteen aft that..
then yea loh..
i dunno wad to post le lah..
but..
i have being feelin so..
i dunno..
very not appreciated by everyone..
everyone seems to treat me like thrash..
i am like just a piece of shit..
they just throw me away as they want..
they need it. they take it back..

c_______. he said this.
i think r__ more trustable on matter like this.
hurt.
i feel so second to you..

its like.. i'm tryin to help you.
but you just dished me aside.
and you said those words..
alrights then.. fine.

seriously..
those words from c hurts me badly..
moreover i have been havin those feelins..
feelins that i am thrash.
feelins that ppl did not care who the fuck i am..
feelins that no one bother abt me..
feelins that everyone only wants r__.
that i am just no one. no one... i'm second to r__.
then you went.. and you shoot those words right into me.
i'm affected..
now i can confirm..
wad i'm feelin is actually fact.
i have been tellin myself its not true.
but sadly..
i really no one..
i'm thrash.. shit.. wadeva dumb thing..
this sucks..
no one cares..
i feel so alone suddenly..

i feel so alone..
no one knows..
i hope no one reads this..
but confirm..
someone will see this..
or mayb not.
cause no one cares..
i feel so sick of life..
why.. why.. why..
why must all this happen to me??
mayb i'm sensitive.. but..
i just feel its really lidat..
i dunno..
but still..
the friendship is not goin away..
but i'll just feel very shit ..
i feel like thrash when i'm with them..
but i'm stayin positive...
and i'm tellin myself all this is a dream..
but..

haiz..
i really dun feel really good..

~~eugeneN~~