its all abt you..

haiz..
alrights..
today was okay i guess..

hmm..
i was late today..
came to sch..
almost 8am le i reach..
and maryanne was there..
and she complainin .. say why i late..
tsk.. just cause she lazy do the latecomin thingy..
ahaha tsk loh! jokes jokes..

then yea..
its farewell mission day.
had the same misson grp since sec1 with us...
and its the last time.
hmm..
i had laughters.
i had a fun time.
and peaceful moments.
i thought i was gonna have a good day..

then..
aft that..
was in the canteen with boonsheng..
only he left with me..
then yea..
saw chan and tay.
so we sat with them and chill.
waited for phys ec.
then it was time and off we go..
did phys paper.. DUH!
then yea..
had bio..
borin as hell..
i slept before lesson start..
and i took my test..
it was okay. can do.
and i didnt even revise for it.. haha!
must be gettin some shit result.. haha!
nvm loh...
not much hope in bio anyways.. hmm..

then yea..
went to canteen aft that..
then yea loh..
i dunno wad to post le lah..
but..
i have being feelin so..
i dunno..
very not appreciated by everyone..
everyone seems to treat me like thrash..
i am like just a piece of shit..
they just throw me away as they want..
they need it. they take it back..

c_______. he said this.
i think r__ more trustable on matter like this.
hurt.
i feel so second to you..

its like.. i'm tryin to help you.
but you just dished me aside.
and you said those words..
alrights then.. fine.

seriously..
those words from c hurts me badly..
moreover i have been havin those feelins..
feelins that i am thrash.
feelins that ppl did not care who the fuck i am..
feelins that no one bother abt me..
feelins that everyone only wants r__.
that i am just no one. no one... i'm second to r__.
then you went.. and you shoot those words right into me.
i'm affected..
now i can confirm..
wad i'm feelin is actually fact.
i have been tellin myself its not true.
but sadly..
i really no one..
i'm thrash.. shit.. wadeva dumb thing..
this sucks..
no one cares..
i feel so alone suddenly..

i feel so alone..
no one knows..
i hope no one reads this..
but confirm..
someone will see this..
or mayb not.
cause no one cares..
i feel so sick of life..
why.. why.. why..
why must all this happen to me??
mayb i'm sensitive.. but..
i just feel its really lidat..
i dunno..
but still..
the friendship is not goin away..
but i'll just feel very shit ..
i feel like thrash when i'm with them..
but i'm stayin positive...
and i'm tellin myself all this is a dream..
but..

haiz..
i really dun feel really good..

~~eugeneN~~

not bad..

hellos!
how have you all being?
i mean..
whoevers reads my blog...
which i dun think much people..
cause this link not much people knows.. (i think)
and yea..

hmm..
i've being fine..
my mind and heart feels lighter now..
woo! so relieved =D
seems like all is goin well..
although i do have some recurrin feelins..
but yea..
slowly ..

alright alrights..
soooo..
i didnt go schh today..
so wasted at home.. tsk.
i woke up late again.. how stupid of me..
haiz.. then nvm loh..
i didnt study..
was too lazy you see..
ahaha
then yeapp..
i didnt miss much lessons..
as today is monday..
slackin monday.. haha
everyone was havin elearnin..
so yea..
all complainin abt it.. haha!
lucky me i no needa do. haha!

hmm..
tmrw is misson day!
slack day at sch..
except for ec. aaha
and night studies..
so yea!
i hope tmrw will be a better day..
i have being feelin better..
and i hope tmrw i wont be a emo asshole in sch..
ahaha!! jokes jokes.
hmm..

wadeva the case..
i rmb i still owes sista present..
and homie chan birthday is wed..
and bunny kahmun birthday is on fri..
hell..
loads of present to buy..
dang..
and kahmun wants a teddy..
exp leh..
ROARS!!

hmm..
olevel in just 2weeks or soo.. wooo
its creepin in le..
sooo fast!
but its good!
can faster get it done with..
then party!! woo!
=D
i wonder if prom is still on.. hmm..
i want prom! damn cool~
hmm..

okok..
i dunno wad to say le..
but yea..
bye i guess?
oooohh and i think i wanna open my blog. haha!
very quiet here..
nvm..
i'll think abt it..

~~eugeneN~~
i wonder how are you now..
its being a long time since i talked to you..
hmm...

once again.

yea man.
hellos y'all!
i'm here again!
to blog abt all !
ahahah =D

alrights..
so mum and sis is comin le!
woo!
does that means stuffs for me?
i do hope so know? =D
they will be back in awhile..
mayb in 30mins time? hmm..

anyways..
ok..
they just came back..
fuckin irritatin i swear..
mum being an ass again..
sian i tell you..
rather they dun come back i swear! tsk
siansiansian!!

nvm..
i got sch tmrw!
whole sch havin elearnin day!
we 4/1 4/2 and 5/1 have to come sch for normal lessons.
ahaha its better than elearnin.
yay!
i rather go sch thats why its good.
ahaha! =D
elearnin is stupid i swear..
so goodluck man all. aha!

hmm..
sooo today i slept till 1pm plus! then i wake up.
ahaha damn retarded..
then i studied abit. did some papers..
then used the comp play guitar and all..
then i went to grannie's house for dinner.
hmm.. then now i am home loh..
tmrw sch..
i wanna sleep soon le.

but yeap.
i dun want sleep so soon..
so yea..

ooohh.
i'm readin yakuza moon again.
gr8 book.
i likey! =D
so sexcitin! ahah!
damn cool loh!

oohh..
chewin guitar pick very nice. haha!
damn shiok! i swear! really no kiddin one!
ahaha!

okok..
i got nth to post le.
so borin.. bye!
off to read Inuyasha manga again. haha =D

~~eugeneN~~

i guess..

hellos.
i'm back le!
soooo tired..

hmm..
anyways..
today mornin went to sch..
for bio and chem consultation..
i did abit of chem..
then off i went to meet the others at woodlands..
ellis roy hean vanessa hongteck yaowei
and someother who we meet them..
but they didnt go east coast..
hmm.. anyways..
we walked arnd causeway..
then we set off for east coast..
bloody long tripp..
can die i tell you..
but i swear.. 176 is worst. haha!
so i'm used le loh..they not. haha!

hmm..
okok..
then reached le the feelin very weird.
makes me think of small that time..
got some recollection of being there before..
hmm..
really fun time.
haiz.. how i wish..
nvm..

okok then.
reached the beach there le.
walked damn long loh! walao..
then horh find a place settle down..
then ellis and vanessa and hongteck go rent and ride bike.
i play guitar.
ahaha
roy too and nick and hean yaowei all stay behind.
then they gamble. not me. i dun gamble.. cause like borin only.
lose money also de.. dun waste my money on gambling. haha
i needa save up to buy my guitar.. haha

oooh wells. then they came back..
ellis had to go home.
so roy had to send her home.
then byebye to them loh.
ahaha
then left us.
go mac eat..
and mcspicy with cheese is gr8! i no kiddin de loh!
walao damn nice uhh. haha
hmm..
then yeap..
i took a bus to grannie's hse.
then i went home aft that.
tired know?

hmm...
then yeap now i at home le.
ahahaa
alrights..
so ..
life sucks nowaday..
nothing goes well..
but i guess thats the way...
nth i can do abt it..
haiz..

hmm..
i think i have gotten over you.
but everytime i see your name or just seein you..
my mind is filled up with thoughts..
occassionally, i too will be thinkin of you..
but soon.
i'll get over you.

anyways..
i'm really sleepy now.

~~eugeneN~~

i'm tryin..

hmm..
alrights.
another post.
ooohh!
if you readin this post..
read the previous one first.
esp sista.
must read!! =D

hmm..
okok..
so today.
bloody kena woke up by mum and sis..
they went gentin..
4++ am then so noisy..
i swear man...
got pissed.
but still got back to sleep.
ahaha
then yea
usual stuffs and went to sch le loh.
ahha =D

hmm..
shit i cant rmb wad happened today..
oooohh!
exam mass in the mornin.
it was okay i guess..
yeap..
the band that played sucks.
no offense.
but yeap.

hmm..
then yea.
had ss.. which is stupid..
then PE! woo!
played soccer.
had a not bad game.
scored 1.
then made loads of passes..
which hean failed time and time again to receive..
tsk.. haha! jokes jokes game only.
nothing one.

hmm..
then yeap.
got all those lessons loh..
och went berserk in emaths.
hist was borin.. so sleepy.. mr chiu was tired too..
so teach till left abt 10mins of time left..
he stopped. let us slacked. haha!
cool huh? =D
then yea. had bio..
which was ok too.. did worksheet with jeremy koo
then walao..
aft that..
i went play bball.
wait so long i can play.
then bloody monkey lee say sec4 get out.
cannot play..
wtf?!
discrimination! we needa relax know! walao!

then nvm loh.
walao..
then that a_____ .
fuckin very angry at her loh..
ask me follow her go canteen buy drinks.
i ask her treat me green tea.
she at first say okay.
then reach there say cannot..
fuck?! then she buy for her cac friends.
kaobei. then ask me take.
think i your slave?! nabei i not happy !
bloody hell..
still keep sayin wad ~buddy how many yrs?~ fuck !
you just a 2 face bitch!

then nvm.
went for emaths ec.
Mr. Rr ahha!
if you heard him pronounce R you will understand.
damn retarded that teacher..
like wtf uhh..
so basket..
tryin to act one big fuck in the class.
act fierce infront of us.
kaobei lah!
go home lah bastard! think you who?!
then aft the lesson call OCH somemore.
wtf was that suppose to mean?!
pfft.

nvm.
then had no geo ec.
shiok only!
then i was with homies chan, tay and kwok =D
royette was with ellis so i didnt wanna disturb them.
then dunno where royette go le.
nvm lohhh..
stayed with my homies.
had laughs and talks with them.
so now i have food marathon with homies aft Olevel.
oooh and food marathon with sista. but that i dunno..
not sure.. confirm busy with royette. haha ..
hmm..

ooohh! then there were some snacks at the study area.
ms tiu ask us all to finish all.
woo!
then dianne was there.
i ask her who de.
then walao..
give me the ans..
________ .
wtheck.. i speechless.
i replied oohh.
walao lah. i wonder still got who know loh..
tsk.. this sucks.
but yea.
i'm gettin over it lah..
slowly.
i can do it!

hmm..
then yeap.
chan, tay and kwok went home..
i thought mayb i will say for night studies..
but i lonely..
nobody stay de.. so borin..
then nvm loh..
i went home instead..
bought my dinner as mum and sis are in gentin!
woo! shiok lah they not in singapore for 3days! woo!
i happy know?
then they will get stuff back! =D
hmm..
but i wanna go gentin play..
but nvm loh..
next time .
aft my Olevel. ahaha

hmmm..
okok le loh.
i guess i have nth to post le loh.
but yea..
lately i have been feelin very heavy..
as in my heart and mind..
very heavy..
alot of things inside ..
but i cant let them out..
as i dun wanna spoil feelins.
so yea..
i just have to keep it inside me loh..
haiz..
i need to throw them away..

~~eugeneN~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLIS!

walao..
cannot upload pic for sista.
nvm nvm.
anyways..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTA =D

sweet 16 worh!
may all your wishes and dreams come true.
and may you and royette stay strong!
=D
thats all i can say for you.
thou we dun talk much now...
still sista sista alrights?
=D

see you tmrw for your celebration! =D

~~eugeneN~~

i feel so hurt.

haiz..
did not have a good day.
today sucks.
seriously sucks.
nth went well.
haiz..

okok.
i still gotta go on with life..
so i had a stupid bad day..
was not myself..
haiz..
mayb cause the msg from her last night..
haiz..
i dun wish to say here.
you know who and wad you ask me abt it loh..
but yea..
1knife stab into my heart.
but oohh well..
i already know its gonna be lidat.
but yea..

soo..
i'm seriously gonna forget all abt it le.
hmm..
i'll pick myself up.
have done it many times.
and this time too..
i'll do it.

hmm...
alrights.
today..
had all the lessons and all..
and yea.
productive day.
got to learn much stuffs.
and yea.
but not a good day.

hmm..
ec was stupid thou.
english was drawin on my worksheet..
ahaa!
so i didnt do..
dun care lah.
english only..
then ss was slack..
talk nonsense at the back of avt.
then yeap ..
aft that.
with sista and homie chan at canteen.
boonsheng was there too.
then reg and kat joined for kat to go up for chem aft awhile.
slacked. shared "love".
you know wad love i'm talkin abt?.
bet you dun.

this love.
its lidat.

my motto.
Food is Love and Anything that can get me Food is Love.
thus ..
money is love.
food is love.
and wad abt true love you may ask..
true love is but a thing.
a thing which hurts.
but still it brings joy.
i dun have it.
wadeva..

hmm..
then night studies..
wadeva..
did maths.
then lidat loh..

haiz..
i really very not myself.
ahhhhhhhhh!!
is everyone lidat when they have love?..

~~eugeneN~~