long awaited post! anyone?

HELLO!
I'M GONNA DO THIS WHOLE POST IN CAPS! AHAHAHA!

SOOO BACK AFT ALONG WHILE!
BEEN NO CHANGES HERE!
CAUSE NO ONE COMES HERE! HEEEE

HMM..
SOOO CHRISTMAS PASTED.
AND I SPENT MY CHRISTMAS EVE WITH POLY FRIENDS.
okay wait. no more caps.

sooo yah.
had steamboat during christmas. -.- wts right. haha
but okay lah!
enjoyed.
at weikuan hse there steamboat and all.
gamble somemore.
vodka.
supper. beer.
watch movie in the room. slack then home.
we ton uhh. haha
then yah

but actual christmas day.
DID NOTHING!
seriously..
soo boring!
then yeahh

hmm..
ohya!
i had my eco camp like last week also.
quite okay.
just that soo lonely!
they all come in one whole class! sucks!
soo hard to make friend when everyone there knows each other!
and i'm like the only stranger! =(
butttt i still made friends lah. hahaha
i got to sleep in underwater world!
swear its a good experience ! ahha
was expecting some paranormal stuffs!
but dun have! =(
wad a letdown. ahaha

hmmm.. then yeah.
still got wad uhh?
oohhh!
gathering of phs and aes clique. haha
which is not everyone who went japan came.
usually only the usual me hean boonsheng and the girls
which also the usual ones. hhaha
had steamboat! again!
omf. ahhaa
and the steamboat not nice one! eeeeee
dun like lohhhh!
but oohh wells!

then photos photos. gift exchange!
i tio yvonne rocher. ahhaa!
=( i want something solid! like toys. ahha
nvm lah. haha
then home! aft all the photos and craziness. not really. heeee

still got wad huh?
hmmmm..
let me find some photos and upload it here uhh. haha






thats all. i'm lazy. ahahha
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

wadup?!?!

wadup fucka out there!!!
this aint no rubbish!
fuck you allllll! =D

okay.
hi.
hello.

finally termbreak!
and i have the time to come here to blog okay!
cause no need study for CT le!
for now.
next year back to sch.
2nd term.
sian !

buuuttt!
now just slack!
do my guitar job.
50 every week.
nice only!

hahahha!

hmmm..
sooooo.
hermanoz not doin well!
wtf.
this team really like no hope only.
but ohhh wells!
wad to do.
everyweek match no training.
no physical.
how get better?
ohh wells!
i not capt. nth to say!

okay!
sooooo!
i just wanna say.
a hello.
and yah.
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

life goes on!

well!
i'm not blogging as frequently as last time.
just lazy.
and busy.
and no mood to blog lah.
alot projects. and CT coming soon.
gotta study for it.
boringggg!

hmm.
well!
one thing!
sunday match went good!
at least for the team.
i think i did very badly! =(
we won overall!
8-2 for this match.
nice game HERMANOZ!

but!
i didnt score. sadlyyy...
was soooo wanting to score!
see everyone scoring like nth lidat!
i also want the actions!
dropping back down to get the ball.
but ! no!
it was just not mine for the taking!
=(

hmm..
but had an assist for hongteck to score.
and shots saved by keeper.
and far wide
damnnnn!
try harder next match!
i wanna play striker again!
shiok! no need defend!
even when i want to.
they just me to get out of there. ahahahaha!
sooo yea!
good! =D

well!
soooo train harder!
improve more!
SCORE MORE!
YES!

okay!
sooooooooo..
i dunno if i shld go to the camp..
gotta pay 25bucks thou..
damnn thats alot..
dunno if i shld..
mayb not..
haizzz,.
why life so hard?!
=(
miserable life.

anddddd..
wad more shld i type here?
hmm.
i love Jennette McCurdy? ahha =D <3
shes just so awesome! \m/

andddd.. yah.
i wanna do a real paranormal investigation!
like seriously!
start with AES!
good spot.

sooo.. yah.
for now.
i'm just studying.
playing my soccer.
guitar.
and yah.
projects and all.
cant wait for the term break.
go earn some cash.
and get myself a guitar.
ESP LTD!

and yea.
keep rocking guys and babes!
bye!

~~eugeneNakamura~~

sometimes you just gotta do it.

well.. long time didnt blog le!
sooo yah.
finally rmb i had this blog.
and sooo yah.
decided to do this.

hmm.. sooo..
nth muchs abt this fucked up life of minee.
everyday the same.
wake up.
sch.
home.
slack.
well..
almost everyday.
except fri got soccer.sat got soccer.
at least i dun die from obesity! aahaha!

well...
soo yea.
sunday got match!
and..
i dunno if i'll play well not.
i hopefully do so!
not gonna let anything to demoralise me!
not gonna repeat it again.
dun want to.
stay high on spirit!
and do it!
score a goal !
i will!
HOPEFULLY!

okay!
sooo!
i have a confession !
i just LOVE JENNETTE McCURDY !!
shes just so lovely dun you think so ? =D ahahaa
but i'm not obsessed with her!
ahahaha

watching iCarly!
and its damn funny!
downloading season 2 at the moment!
nice!

and yah!
poa is actually not bad!
quite fun! just needa write ALOT!
but not bad! =D

and all the CT and projects coming soon!
siann!
next week shall start on all the projects le!
no more slacking!
and do some more studying!

sooo yea
thats all uhh..
nth more to type.
bye!
very sleepy!

~~eugeneN~~

you're beautiful

well..
hellos!
posting more now.

sooo yahh..
its a hol tmrw! =D
no sch!
play soccer!
thats my life right now.
no sch = play soccer.
abit no life. but still got life. hahaa!

hmm..
soo yea.
today had IS lessons.
idea jumpstart was fun!
building that paper rollercoaster!
we had a bra coaster!
the 2funnels we made looks like bra and they were so close tgt. hahaa!
D36! ahahahaha!

hmm.. then yah.
our marble had a long ride!
14secs longest! woo!
then yah.
had s&w aft that!

did not have a good feeling initially..
but actually it was not that bad!
i thought they will be some ass.
but okay uhh. quite nice .
coach not bad also.
then yah!
girls from the C01 actually joined street soccer uhh! haha!
surprised!
and its that girl! hahaha! xD

ssoo yah.
street soccer not bad.
and i realise this.
i think i have anxiety attack.
quite a mild one.
always will have this nervous attack wheneva i like ..
how say? in situations like this uhh.
always like soccer situation.
playin against others.
start of a match.
or yah.
always will have ALOT of butterflies in my stomach.
then will feeling like vomitting and dizzy.
then vision not that good.
cant breathe well also.
always one.

thats wad happened today also.
but not that serious one today.
i played.. okay i think.
just all the loose pass and bad touches.
and the bad bad shot.
high ball passed to me.
first touch nice.
under pressure.
shoot. far wide. sian! ahha
but yahhh..
okay lah i think.

hmm.. then yah. home aftwards.
well.. thats all i did today. nth muchs one.

tmrw soccer!
but in the morning i shld finish up my interior design hmwk!
need draw a room.
sooo mahfan!
need follow fucking dimensions and all..
sian!
can go blind man!

well..
soo i think thats all for bloggin now..
dun feel like typing le.
sooo yah.
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

its been long!

well hellos! first post aft sooooo long!
and its the first of november!

its already been the 2nd week of sch le!
been boring!
but had funny moments and crazy moments.
MASTER TAN! ahahha! jokes jokes!

soo yah.
but overall!
boring lectures.
boring times. sooo sleepy!
and s&w sport sucks! FML!
of all. street soccer.
lanjiao.. sian lahh.
thou i play soccer.
but i dun wanna be in that for s&w lah!
want smth else!
like tennis!
or volleyball!
sian!
nvm loh...
just go there own those ppl!
YUPS. haha

hmm..
then yahh.
everyday sian lah.
nth do.
go sch come home.
boring.
everybody like dun go out anywhere de..
so go home orh.
nth do.

i needa join another cca!
get more life aft sch!
and meet even more ppl!
lucky got BEGV!
i like goin for the events!
meet ppl.
get cca pts.
then quite okay.
soo yah! =D

hmm..
sooo now..
oohh! i found out habbo merged!
with all the uk us canada and all.
singapore also.
hardcore man!
now habbo all corrupted.
people having cybersex!

one thing abt cybersex.
a gay can pretend to be a girl and you are "fucking" a guy actually. hahaha!
jokes!
thats why!
never play cybersex! =D

sooo.. yea.
i dunno wad to say anymore...
ooh!
friday no sch! wooo!
which means!
early soccer!
and means we can end soccer earlier!
cause night so many ppl we dunno come!
esp that grp!
walao!
basket always come here play.
lanjiao..
sian one !

hmm..
soo then yah.
my eye ahh.
still blur blur vision.
but it seems like getting abit better.
hopefully will heal by next week..

well..
and know wad i want now?
i wanna oversea penpal!
soooooooo cool!
i think i'm gonna have one soon! =D
shall find one! hahaha!

and i needa have a electric guitar!
like seriously!
that classical is seriously CMI!
no hope already.
need smth better!
alot better!
ooohh and i needa get my drum sticks!
for that performance in nov i think.
wait.
its already november!
ohh shit!

hmm..
i wonder if the performance is still on..
hopefully so!
i wanna play in that show!
drummer! \m/!
hope dun screw up!
if screw up i will be damn paisehh uhh!
infront of a crowd.

well..
so then..
nth to do now..
i needa study .
shall study on sat and sun.
write notes for the new modules.
sooo when exams come i dun have to rush notes .
and can use the time to get stuffs into my head!

i dun wanna get a 2.6gpa anymore for next sem!
i want at least a 3.4!
i dunno why i cannot get a A man!
this sucks uhh!
lanjiaooooo.

soo yah.
FML!

bye!

life still sucks.

~~eugeneN~~

suicide.

well.
i feel fucking fucked up now.
and everything is bottomed up inside me.
i have nowhere else to turn to.
the only place i can say everything out is on my fb .
and twitter.
but this leads to everyone seeing them.
sooo i've come to my blog.
where not many cares.
well nobody cares in the first place.

and i would like to say.
i aint tryin to get any fucking attention.
i aint tryin to get any sympathy from anyone.
i just wanna fucking say wad i feel.
cause this life just seriously fucking sucks.

i dunno where to begin.
but basically. it all starts from family.
this family sucks.
i dun have a proper family.
i always see friends with sucha nice family.
where the parents bother to care.
the parents gives allowance.
pay for lessons.
they cook or just put food on the table.
so you survive.

but wad do i get in this family?
no father.
actually is a father who fucking laze arnd doing nth.
and fooling with women.
and now he is out of my life.
but how i wish.
i always wish.
i had a dad.
a dad who cares.
a dad who loves.

and wad abt my mum?
she changed totally ever since my fucking dad gone.
its like a recoil.
she got rid of a fucking man.
and here comes a fucking woman.
she dun even cares if we have food to eat.
she borrows money and dun fucking return.
and in due time she just dun care anymore.
wtf.
seriously. wtf.

thisishowFUCKEDUPthisfamilyis.

i see everyone.
they dun even have to worry.
when they get home.
they have food.
they have the parents love they need.

me?
i have got nth.
no dad.
and a mum who dun cares abt out livelihood.

how i wish.

='(

i'm damn emotional noww. sheesh.
i'm thinking alot.
theres also more prob in my life.
but..

~~eugeneN~~