everyone hates me. admit it.

well..
i dun want a hello today..
hack me into pieces.
tear me apart.
i've been destroyed.
and buried to death.

alrights..
to the normal stuffs..
today!
woke up..
and yea..
obviously do the normal stuffs..
and then yea..

meet up with clemence at jurong east mrt.
he's gonna accompany me to go recruit express.
to get a job!
yea man!

and know wad?!
first thing i see him.
WTF?!
he look fuckin gay now..
pink shirt is okay.
but wtf when he wears a pink converse high cut..
walao..
then yea..
other than the piercing to his left ear.
nth much changed.
hair still the same.
look still the same. haha!

okay.
then yea..
recruit express.
say will call me when got jobs.
sooo yea..
the lady who attended to me is pretty.
haha! xD

then yea..
went to macs to have lunch.
and just..
lepak there awhile loh..
finish le like still got loads of time uhh!
went imm then!

over there! alot lookin for part time!
i went to cafe cartell.
and its quite a nice environment!
i hope to work there.
mayb will get the job.
asked alot.
even asked for my uniform size xD
hopes! ahha
yea..

then just walked arnd imm loh..
been there so many times this yr and last yr.
whoa man!
then yea.. went home aft that..

hmm..
alrights..
nowadays.
i dunno why..
but ..
life is just gettin worsst..

life is gettin WORST.
haiz..
lotsa family probs.
money probs.
and dunno why..
but i feel like a black sheep..
=(
life sucks to the max now.
well not to the max.
but still.
it sucks loads!
but..
i'm stayin strong.

~~eugeneN~~

i wanna leave this family.

=(
i'm feelin fuck now.
i'm not right now..
everything sucks now.
wad the fuck was that for?!
i hate everyone in this family.
i hate you all.
seriously.

i feel like a black sheep in this family.
i feel no love in this family at all.
everything is kept a secret from me.
i know nth.
nth .
they all hate me.

i'm tired of this family.
really tired of it..
everything i do is wrong.
its always my fault.
since young.
i've tolerated enugh with this fucked up family.

today is the day.
i've had enugh.
i'm not caring anymore.
dun expect me to help you anymore.
dun expect me to lend you money.
lend you money to buy viceroy?
fuck it.
be glad that i even lend you those 30bucks.
lend you 50?
wad will you buy?
viceroy.
why the fuck would i give you money buy ciggs?
no way.

and you went all drama and wanting leave home.
fuck and made sis cried.
this is fucked up stuffs.
and sis dun fuckin bother tellin me wad happened.
till 5yrs old bro said wad bro in law said to him.
i quarelled with mum?
wtf?!
that was aint no quarrel.

well.
i'm always the black sheep in this family.
everyone hates me.
well..
fuck it.
i already dun have a dad.
well fuck it.
i can do without a mum.

just dun ruin my future.
dun.

well..
i have no mood to type down wad i did today le..
but..
i'm still doin it..

went for interview.
they say call back.
oooh wells..
confirm wont call back..
soo nvm le..
look for more job tmrw..
not enugh money .. =(

okay..
i'm damn tired frm all the emotions tonight...
haiz.. why am i born in this family??
=(

~~eugeneN~~

time to get rich!

well well well!
i'm back !
as promised yea!
ahhaa!

well..
hmm..
actually i dunno wad to type uhh..
alrights lah..
today. basically just home whole day..
yea..

boring muchs!
oooh wells..
no work wad..
no job.
but!
tmrw got interview!
need go till expo for their office..
omg man!
needa wake up fuckin early loh!
well.. for money!
i'm be goin with adeleine!
cause i think shes the only one who will work sales.
sooo yea.
hean wont want de lah.
boonsheng also.
and everyone else got job.
sooo yea.

sales promoter!
am i gonna get the job?
hopefully!
then i'll have money!
and i can get guitar!
drums!
itouch!
muchmuch more!
xD
sounds so corny..

okay..
soo.
i dunno wad to say le..
every fri jammin..
if get this job dunno if can make it not..
dun think can le..
oooh wells!
money comes first.
need money then can spend mah! xD
alrights uhh..
neeeda go le lah.

needa wake up early tmrw!
10am needa reach expo ..
mahfan.. sheesh..

byebye!
love y'all!

~~eugeneN~~

two man show!

just a quick update on ytd!
it was a great day ytd btw! =D

well anyways..
went to fish n co at great world city.
and reg and kat was workin there!
its the main pt why we went there to eat uhh..
ooohh and i went there with roy. haha
and yea..

food was.. say.. lidat uhh! haha
okok lah..
then yea..
spent like 60bucks plus there!
omg man!
goin no money le lah! haha
but ooh wellls..

then yea..
alot of funny things uhh..
then we decided !
jammin!
go till paradiz.
2hrs of jammin!
from 9.30 to 11.30!
rushed for the last train!

ooohh.
and jammin was great!
in fact better than the last 2!
last 2 was demoralising man..
but this time round we had smth goin!
music was actually comin out!
we had songs played!
i played the drums!
and it was actually not bad yo! =D
and yea..
played the guitar too.
shiokness!
=D

wanna see vid?
upload soon. yea.
soo yea.
i'll be back tonight.
=D
peace out rockers.

~~eugeneN~~

i'm invisible to everyone.

well..
hellos once again.
no one reads this shits..
and i know i've said this alot..
but well..
who cares! haha!
i'm just bloggin out of boredom and .
its a habit to blog already..
and i've mentioned it in my other previous posts..

alrights..
today..
i stayed home all day..
i woke up at 1.30pm..
wow! sooo late..
and was supposed to go eat fishnco.
but! nopes.. in the end didnt go le..
sooo i stayed home..
and practically just slacked..

hmm..
popo cooked porridge today.
its better than goin out and buyin smth to eat..
dun you agreE?
well.. i prefer homecooked food.
and i think some ppl just dun appreciate homecooked food..
they dread those and rather buy..
not for me..

well well well..
and..
i've no job..
but i'm gettin one soon..
if they are hiring..
over at eugenia's workplace..
i've asked her to help me ask..
hopefully i can get the job.
and money will come into my pocket.
yay!

oooohh!
update.
i'm gettin a skateboard soon.
my bro said he found boards at queensway.
and they are selling at 40plus.
i dun mind gettin one yo!
soon you will see rodney mullens!
ahahaha! xD

ooohh wells..
the time now is 1am..
i think i'm turnin in soon..
i guess?
hmm.. tmrw i think goin CNG..
not sure leh..
they goin..
i dunno if i shld go..
quite lazy to go..
and i dunno why..
but i feel that i'm the odd one out there..
i dunno why..
hmm..

okay..
i found out smth..
that happened on fri..
and i'm abit not happy abt it..
its like aint we your friends too??
and we not included..
walao!
lidat de loh..
fine man.

yea okay..
i dunno wad to post le..
but i've alot of things that i wanna achieve!
alot!
like..
having a band.
having my own company or store.
able to support myself.
and HAVE A CAREFREE LIFE!
i would like that..
sadly...
in this world.
thats an almost impossible thing to doo..
unless..
you're born with a golden spoon..
however!
then your parents will pressure you with studies..
sheesh! dun like! hhaa

okay..
i dun wanna type down anymore..
i'll come back tmrw night..
and yea..
byes!
loves you!

~~eugeneN~~

i suck at guitar.

AHHHH!
I SUCK!!
LIKE FUCKING SUCK MUCHS!
FUCK MAN!
=(
THIS IS SOOOOOOOOOOOO DEPRESSING!!
FUCKKCCKKCKCKCKC!
WHY!!!????
HAIZ....

ooohh wells..
one thing for sure.
i suck at guitar.
i suck at everything..
this is damn depressing..
i feel like giving up..
but no!
i cannot!
i needa attend lessons!
to be better!!
CHIONG!!

hmm..
anyways..
today went out..
to submit all the documents to hr..
fuckers lost my documents..
then yea..
wasted 6bucks on photo..
kao! exp!
hmm..then yea..
went to look for jobs.
but to no avail..

call roy aft his work.
come lepak..
then went to parkmall..
where i ask the fish n co there for job..
bloody wasted my time signin the form..
just straight say dun want lah..
ask me write le..
then say dun want..
idiots!

then yea..
went to plaza sing..
had my dinner there.
and then we lepak till damn long uhh!
and then decided on jammin!
called huishan along.
3 ppl go jam!
she cannot play anything . haha

we waited like 2hrs for jammin uhh!
cause all early slots booked!
we no more!
shit! then 9pm slots..
till 11pm..
jam.
i swear it sucks!
felt so wasted!
like money fly away!
sian! and we didnt play any good things..
and this is worst than the last jammin with koo and boonsheng..
sheesh..
wadeva uhh..
but yea.
isuckman!

wells..
then yea..
i took the train home.
while roy and huishan went to look for their workin friends..
ahhaa!
i odd one out uhh.
wadeva!

soo yea.
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

fucked up and pekcek!

well..
i feel very fucked up abt stuffs now..
fuckin messing my life up..
fuck man!
=(
i need someone..
but no one to talk to..
bye!

~~eugeneN~~