i still not happy okay!

guess wad..
i just decided not to work with roy they all..
its just..
i dun feel right with them ALL.
not wad i want..
i guess i shall go look for one myself..

hmm..
soo.. today..
was pretty..
i dunno how say..
but yea..
hmm..
had bio paper in the aftnoon...
it was not bad?
can do.. but alot stupid mistakes..
haha hmm..
and yea..

ooohh!
to the birthday girl ytd.
i got your msg today..
but i cannot reply.
my phone cannot send and call..
soo yea.. haha
but yea.
you take cares too. =D

hmm..
soo back to today.
i was decidin if to go for the steamboat lah!
then i reach home decided to go loh.. haha
just go uhh.. hmm..
then yea..
and received call from roy abt a job..
but i just realised that its with others also other than roy and clemence..
soo yea.. not thks man.
sry i pangseh.
but yea.. no thks.
hmm..
then yea..
reach home..

and then!
went out at 5plus..
take mrt to AMK.
hmm.. met grace, aizhen, boonsheng and esther there.
hellos esther. haha first time meetin you.. =D haha
hmm.. then hean.. was late..
tsk.. plurk plurk plurk.. haha!
hmm.. then yea..
walk walk walk to the steamboat place..
i very tired actually..
but still go. haha

hmm..
anyways the steamboat was quite nice? haha
but not enugh variety lah! haha too little!!
hmm.. must have more! ahah
but yea.. quite fillin..
i very full loh! haha
and esther is like a small girl. haha!
i dunno why.. she seems like a small girl. haha!!
nice to meet you. aha

yea.. then eat eat eat..
not much talkin from me. haha
i cannot talk much. haha i think very weird..
no voice still wanna talk.. haha!
hmm.. then yea..
eat finish..
pay 14bucks..
dang! big sum..
but ooh wells..
must enjoy enjoy mah..
aft O's le.. haha

yea. then .. finish..
walk arnd..
go some shop. haha
then aft the girls happy with the walkin to shops..
then go home..
i took train home..
reach home..
use comp..
and now i'm here bloggin..

hmm..
ooohh..
a reminder..
didnt pay phone bills..
sooo cannot use le..
only can receive calls and msg..
sooo anything call me..
dun text me..
yea..

lets see.. wad more?
hmm..
tmrw gonna look for jobs in the paper..
need work.
get cash.
settle stuffs.
and yea..

mon back to sch..
rehearsal for grad day.
tues grad day.
hmm.. dunno how i shld feel..
but yea..
a new life it will be.
its good. but at the same time bad..
i dunno.. mixed emotions.
hmm.. i needa talk to someone..
i'm breakin down inside soon.. haiz..
this sucks..
byebye!

~~eugeneN~~
yea you dun like ppl who say other ppl are ugly?
but thats better than someone who fuckin talk behind someone's back
and someone who fuckin badmouth someone behind him.
fuck it! you make my blood boil!
seesh!

ahh you fuckin bitch!

okok..
fuckin hell!
i felt so hurt man!
you .. seriously..
shut up. get away from me.

hmm..
today..
i had no voice..
didnt speak muchs..
sooo yea..
and i didnt have a good day..
really sucks lah today!

went to sch arnd 12..
then yea..
read abit of my notes..
then i just stared into blank space..
feelin..
not very good..
really lah..
sooo loney loh.
but ooohh wells..
this is life?
haiz...

hmm..
then had the paper..
which was easy?
hmm.. but a few careless mistakes here there..
sucks lah!
but yea..
overall okok. =D
tmrw got bio paper 1.
then O's will be done for me.
ahaha! yay!

hmm..
aft the paper.. i went home loh..
yea.. thats abt the day lah..
reached home.. slacked le loh.. haha

yea..
then..
tmrw aft the paper i think will be goin amk at 6pm?
to meet hean boonsheng and grace they all?
i also dunno whos goin..
but ooh wells...
they goin some crazy exp place to eat?
walao.. i no money leh..
sian. i still needa buy stuffs for prom leh..
its like .. haiz..
sian!!

hmm..
and i cannot dun go tmrw.
cause grace goin overseas?
so needa like..
bid farewell or smth?
yea.. hmm.. so yea loh..

anyways..
i just realised smth lah..
and it made me fuckin angry!
i swear man! serious!
its like wtf?!
fuckin stabbed me in the back.
dun talk to me anymore.
go away!
>=(

hmm..
i hope my voice returns tmrw.
soo i can speak.. haha
its sucks you know?! haha
hmm.. oohh.. and i also found out smth. haha
congratz. haha! =D
stay strong. ahah

and lastly..
happy birthday to you.
i know you dun wanna talk to me.
so yea.
i only can say happy birthday to you here..
i dunno if you will see it..
but anyways..
happy birthday.

bye then.
jiayi! i update le. haha
read it ! haha =D
stay crazy. haha

~~eugeneN~~

please..

okok.
a fast update on today..
didnt go out..
had a headache.. argh!

hmm..
i was stuck home whole day..
i actually stuck myself at home..
didnt wanna go out..
soooo lazy go out..
and not really feelin well.. haiz..

then yea..
i used the comp..
played psp..
then i had a nap..
wow!
not bad?
but i woke up and had a bad headache..
actually it worsen..
since ytd de leh! =(

hmm..
then yea..
did not do anything else uhh..
so i practically slacked whole day..
ahhaa! xD

soo tmrw got paper!
science mcq paper 1. haha
then aft that..
i dunno wad to do..
dinner anyone? ahaha xD
hmm.. i wanna eat mac! haha xD
but i doubt i have enugh..

hmm..
ooohh!
tmrw gotta pay prom money..
shit man!
lucky mum got the cash.
yay! love you mum! haha!! xD
hmm..
then gotta settle all the clothes and all..
fuck! no money le lah! dang man!

hmm..
ooohh! i love chilli. haha!! =S
okok lah.. i am being random now.. haha!
i'm eatin horfun. haha! woots!
i didnt eat anything today..
for the whole day!
soo i'm only eatin dinner.. which is at 10pm..
pfft.. wtf right? haha!
sian loh! hmm..

so yea..
i guess i shld be goin to sleep..
go sch early tmrw..
i dun wanna stay home till late late then go sch for paper.. haha
scared will rain uhh.. sucks one leh!! oohh! shit! haven wash socks..
pfftt.. time to wash them.. byebye!

~~eugeneN~~

black and white. red and blue. yellow and green.

so yea!
here i am fellow readers!
if there are even any? hmm..
i wonder..

alrights..
so today..
i woke up at 1pm! wow! haha
thats damn late uhh!
thats cause last night slept at 3am!
crazy muchs? was playin psp uhh.. haha
this game so fun!
crystal defence!
its a Final Fantasy games.
just in the genre of smth like tower defence.
ahah so fun! =D

soo.. yea..
hmm..
then mornin wake up.
saw roy msg.
go out lepak.
ahaha okok loh! haha
nth do at home anyways..
and needa help mum to top up electricity. haha
so yeap!
bathe everything.
then off i go!

and it rained! fuck!
ahha sooo not a good day to go out loh.. pfft!
hmm.. then yea.. took a bus to west mall.
met roy there.. then went to have kfc lunch!
2piece chicken meal! woots!
then yea.. aft that..
went to look for void deck with table to lepak.
he got his guitar. so yea!
i wanna play. haha

hmm..
then play play..
i actually did 1 mcq paper there! haha! wow!
then i do finish throw away. haha! xD
no need keep one. haha
hmm..
then yea..
play guitar, write lyrics which failed terribly.
and sing.. which i cant with the state of my cough.. haa
soo yea... sucks muchs? haha

hmm then decided to bus home.
then reach home le loh..
then eat, use comp.
hmm..
tmrw no paper again..
cause i didnt retake mothertongue. haha
so yeap! i'm free tmrw!
ahaha
ooohh!
tmrw mac? i hope hean is serious?
cause i wanna go out for mac! ahah
hmm.. i want the lunch time one.
cheaper! haha
can save money leh! haha ! xD

okay..
sooo..
11nov needa settle prom money!
shit! i hope mum has the cash!
needa pay! i wanna gooo!!
and then aft that i needa go get a guitar..
and shop for clothes..
dang..
its all abt the cash ehhs? =/
sian lah! no money really sucks!
rob bank! haha!
crazzy.. kena arrested only.. haha!

so then..
i dun have anything to say le..
but i just wanna say..
she still didnt reply me..
haiz..
dunno wads wrong.. sian..
anyways.. its only 2 more days to your birthday..
i know you dun wanna talk to me..
and you dun wanna see me?
ooohh wells..
happy birthday to you in advance.
rest assure i wont spoil your day. bye.

~~eugeneN~~

i realised.

hmm..
howdy fellow good looking readers! =D
its a bla bla day!
ahah!
man! i feel so retarded!! =/

anyways..
today..
mainly was slackin at home uhh.. not much of an excitement..
how sad.. i feel soooo restless loh! =(
i needa do smth man!
today woke up aft washing up i played psp!
how NO LIFE! =X
sian loh! play finish i used comp!
another electronic! wtf?!
ahah! i think this is crazy muchs!
hmm..
then i practically used for the whole day!

then.. aft that went over to grands place for dinner downstairs.
it was a treat by sis to whole family.
cause we helped her take care of her baby at times.
so yeap!
but horh..
i cannot stand _____ lah!
walao!
he like wad siol?!
tryin to act big lidat.
NBCCB! fuck you! _l_

sooo then.
aft the dinner..
went up to grands house.
slacked awhile.
ate BANANA! my favorite fruit!!
then yea.. i decided to go home. haha

hmm.. so anyhoo i'm home now!
ahaha obviously! or else how i blog? haha!
retarded me.. pfft. haha
i'm seriously very bored now uhh..
this life like soooo not fun leh!
nth new one..
haiz..
i want a more exciting life!
and someone who will always be there for me. =/
just yea.. wadeva..

hmm..
soooo tmrw..
will be another boring day?
most likely!! sian! nth do leh!!
mayb go out for a walk alone? hmm..
i'll see abt that..
go see see guitars..
then.. ooohh! thurs!
queensway aft bio paper.
yay! haha guitars! and formal wear. haha for prom.
hmm.. not confirm i think? hmm
okok..yea..

i needa get awhile for awhile..
haiz.. i feel like goin to beach..
to relax and yea..
just relax..
hmm..
needa getaway from this life..
i also dunno wad i'm thinkin ... haha!
but yea..
actually.. my mind is in a twirl..
i dunno wad i really want..
i think theres too much! haiz..
sooo frustrated.. sian loh!

and and and..
she didnt reply me..
i dunno why..
if you readin this..
please tell me..
wad i did that made you unhappy with me?
are you angry with me?
why?
please do reply me..
i dunno why you suddenly dun wanna reply my text anymore..
ever since that day.. haiz..
why?
hmm..

soo yea..
i like this song now!
Cassis by Gazette.
great band!
btw its Jrock! haha =D
i want a Jrock inspired band!
as i have mentioned! haha =D
sooo cool! haha
oooh and did i mention? i love acoustic.
its got more of a real feelin. haha!
but i do love my distortions too! haha
more of a ROAR! kinda feeling. aha =D
soo yea.
i wanna get acoustic soon! haha
like faster!!

but! first needa pay prom money first..
sian! i soo scared mum last min say no money pay leh!
then i tell you i dunno wad to do le..
i think i will be very disppointed loh..
haiz.. money probs..
sucks!
=(
i want a better life!
sian..

okok..
i've being rantin alot today.. haha
soo then.. off i go.
byebye!

~~eugeneN~~

shld i?

lalalala!
i'm back!
heehee! hahah

hmmm..
soo.. today was a tirin day!
phew!

went to school this morning.
for chem!
nobody leh! walao!
pang was there.
then there was endy and faris too.
koo came and so did regina and kathleen.
yeap!
sooo chem..
not muchs..
more of a talk talk.. haha!
but i did 2 mcq paper! haha
good muchs? =D

aft that went to bpp mac.
to eat lunch!
meet hean there .
then yea. makan uhh!
mcchicken meal.
hmm.. ok uhh? yea.
met brendan loo there.
talked awhile to him.
then bryan they all come . then they go le. haha

went hean hse aft that..
wanting to play soccer.
tell roy to go also.
slack in the house..
then soccer downstairs!! haha
koo came aft that..
sooo kick it! bounce it! flick it!
stamina drop like dunno wad..
sian! needa run more!
night run every night aft O's bio paper!
which is the last paper! haha =D

i cant wait!!
ooohh! and have loads of plans for aft O's!
food marathon, jammin, work, buying of new guitar, and loads more!!
wah! so excited!!
oohhh! and theres prom!
gonna perform!! yessss! haha =D
so happy!
goin acoustic! haha
so will be playin many many covers. haha =D
cant wait!! haha
hmm..so yeap!
last paper on 12nov!
ahah

hmm..
ooohh! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA YI!
13 yrs old! be more crazy! ahhaa
xD i'm the first to wish you! haha =D yay!

okok next.
sooo..
today smth unexpected happened..
shall not say out..
but yea..
it got me thinkin..
hmm..
i dunno if i shld..
ooohh wells..

annnddd..
i'm just really tired today..
annd.. i dunno wad to say anymore..
ooohh!!
more and more ppl are knowin my blog url..
pfft.. nvm..
ooohh well..
link me everyone! hhhaha
shall make known this blog! ahah
link! =D

hmm..
soo anyways..
i'm gonna really get my acoustic guitar soon!! haha
like really really soon! haha
sooo happy!
now just need more cash! haha xD
sian! =(
someone make my day by givin me a guitar.
want? haha ! xD

haiz..
soo mon and tues no paper for me!
soo that means slackin at home?
i hope not! soo sian!
i think mayb i wanna go out look at guitars.
my bro just told me theres a guitar shop at queensway?
shall go there on mon see see..
and mayb shall go to peninsula plaza to check out too. haha

alrights!
soo the comp is gettin bloody laggy!
sooo.. i think i wanna go le.
byebye fellow readers.
ILY! <3 =D haha ~~eugeneN~~
you got me thinkin.. hmm
i'm scared.

i like petite girls. xD

hellos!
2 more papers to go mannn!! haha

hmm..
anyways..
today had bio paper!
it was surprisingly easy!
ahah =D
so happy !

hmm..
then before that.. i studied like crazy!
tryin to rmb all the stuffs!
then yeap! chiong like hell!!
walao! tirin!

oohh!
before that..
when i still studying at the study area.
then i talked to Mr Chiu.
talk abt ytd hist paper..
oooh hell!
i realised i did my essay wrongly! =(
i feel soooo demoralised loh!
damn depressing lah!
i dunno how i will do le..
hist my hope for A1!
gone..
='(
feel so soo sooo disappointed with myself!
haiz..

nvm..
anyways..
bio was a booster for me =D
shall count on bio now than hist le..
haha! how not right. haha

soo..
then aft the paper..
went home le loh..
bus home.. walk and tadah! home! =D
then yea..
being using the comp till now. haha
very tired now.. phew!

hmm..
i need a guitar!
and i wanna form a Jrock inspired band!!
damn cool! =D
walao! damn nice lah! and play rock ballads!
everything rock man! ahah
xD

hmm..
then yea..
tmrw goin sch for chem!! yay!
mrs wee will be in sch tmrw!
woo! sooo i can go sch!
and not stay at home.. which is like soooo borin!
and go out to sch! will have money from mum.
ahha i needa have money on me!
or i will die man!!
hmm..

i sooo wanna play soccer!
very long didnt play le..
sian lah! walao! have the itch to flick that ball up. haha!
oohh wells.. haha soon.

hmm..
i dun feel like typin anymore..
i wanna sleep! haha
byebye!

~~eugeneN~~