anyhow anyway.

okay all.
i'm here again.
today was stupid.
i keep tellin myself to study.
but i dunno wad to study..
was thinkin ..
alot of subs.
i wanna study.
i dunno wad to start on..
then also like dunno how to start on it.
ahaha

hmm..
oohh.
i have it planned out for Olevel maths.
aft science pract Os, there will be like 5days of no exams?
so i'll be chiongin maths .
intensive maths .
so now i'm puttin maths aside.
cause i think i can manage bah for maths.
so i'll put it aside.
then concentrate on other subs now..
like my bio..
holy shits.
and my geo..
haiz..
needa buck up!
and everyone else!!
ahaha

hmm..
so..
today was playin guitar whole day.
i can tune to dropD le!
yays! so can play alot songs.
alot all time low songs.
ahaa =D
hmm..
then yea.
can play weightless.
i like! and dear maria. =D
woo!

okok.
apart from guitars.
i used the comp and just slacked loh..
phone very quiet the whole day.
argh wadeva..
siansiansian!!
haiz..

hmm..
then yeap.
my mind is so mixed up.
i dunno wad i'm thinkin..
but anyways.
its still abt the same thing.
haiz..
life is stupid for me now.
people driftin from my life..
all floatin away..
i'm so alone i feel.
i have nth anymore.
nth.
only myself.
i'm tryin to get out of this hole.
but i cant.
i'm locked up inside.

love is outside this hole.
i want it.
but they dun want me to haave it.
i'm at my wits end.
i dunno wad to do le.
i guess..

i needa get a life.
its not healthy.
thinkin so much.
worryin so much.
being so shit and all..
its not healthy.
i need to get upbeat.
so ..
i dunno..

~~eugeneN~~

wow.

alrights.
i'm here once again to blog.
its been a stupid day i guess.
i woke up damn late loh..
soooo stupid.
walao..
like one whole day wasted i swear.
anyways..
i still have to get on with the day.
used the comp and all..

ooohh.
did i mention this?
i can play the electric guitar le.
got the plug.
just plug into the hifi set.
there! the sound comes out.
so now..
everyday jammin at home.
aha!
cant study de.
hmm..
so yeaps.
so you shld know i played the guitar at home also.
ahaha!
shiok know?
woo!

hmm..
alrights.
slacked at home.
then went for dinner.
lidat loh..
very retarded lah..
hmm..
mayb tmrw goin to work.
get some cash.
=D i wanna get my guitar.
electric guitar.
then jam with bro at home.
ahaha!
shiok leh!
but first get my acoustic first.
more practical.
can bring out jammin at some wuluwulu place with the guys.
and can serenade girls ok!
ahaha!

hmm..
anyways.
20+ days to Os.
wow.
its near uhh?
but yea.
i'm quite ready for it le.
i think.
i just needa clear a few doubts in chem and phys.
then do abit better for emaths.
and yea.
humanities just needa do better for geo.
no more last min man..
ahaha! and yea.
my bio..
i dunno how le..
just lidat loh bio.
i'll do wad i can..
no promise thou..
lucky i have a B3 for chinese le.
can count on it.
=D

hmm..
so now..
its 1am le..
wow. so late..
my gums hurts.
dunno why..
shitbag.
hate this..

ooohh.
MANCHESTER UNITED WON!! 4-3 in your face!
man city is a rip off!!
fuck off city!
and i still love you Wigan! =D

hmm..
ooohhh.
i wanna tell this person.
this sentence.
FASTER STUDY!
STOP WASTING TIME AWAY !
BUCK UP MAN. STUDY NOW THEN CAN ENJOY LE.
this is to royette.
ehhs brother. dun wanna see you retain.
buck up man.

alrights.
i dunno wad to type here anymore.
oohh.
once and once again.
i failed.
=(

~~eugeneN~~

wads the point?

alrights.
today is another day.
thus i wanna blog.
i update blog regularly ehhs?
ahah =D
cause i nth do.
so i wanna blog.
and bloggin is like a routine le.
so yeap.

hmm..
today i woke up late..
retarded.
was suppose to go sch.
and i was plannin to rush to sch..
but..
it poured.
and i decided not to go le.
ahah!
cause rain = no mood.
i know.
its stupid but still..
ahaha

hmm..
then used the comp whole day loh..
then went to grannie's hse.
for dinner.
it was fine.
the usual kicks.
ahaha

then yeap.
she text me today.
was really happy she did.
whenever she text me.
i will have a smile on my face.
its that amazin.
she wont know.
but yea.
you will one day.
=D
how i wish i know how you are feelin.

hmm..
alrights.
tmrw is sun.
which means hari raya.
i wish all malays selamat hari ray.
ahaha!

and..
tmrw shall be studyin!
did no studyin today.
so tmrw loh..
mayb i go out alone to study.
or mayb get some company?
dunno.
i see how..
hmm..
then mon no sch.
i wanna ask her out to study tgt.
confirm she cannot again.
but ooohh wells.
you never know until you try.
and thats wad i'm gonna do.
watch me girl. =D

i'm feelin so tired..
i wanna sleep le.
*yawnsss*
i thinkin of you ________.

~~eugeneN~~

i think.

ohhh well.
its 1am now.
and i'm bloggin.
endin my day soon..
its being long.
and sweaty.
ahaha!

hmm..
alrights.
lets see..
today.
went sch lah..
obviously..
then wad? pon sch meh?!
siao.. dun want pon lah.. waste day only..
ahaha
okok.
so had all the lessons..
i actually went to cat class in the mornin..
whoa.
not bad uhh.
sing song..
stupid only..
ahha
aircon at least. =D
hmm...
then yea uhh.
go back class for lessons and all..
then pe!
woo!

played bball.
i kup hean ball.
not bad!
watch out hean!
although you cant see this.
but yea.
ahaa! xD

hmmm alrights.
then yea..
all the normal lessons loh..
i think i like givin up on bio..
dunno leh.
but i still studyin.
not so hardcore bio thou.
yea.
hmm..
then yea.
aft sch played soccer.
stupid.
then rain..
retarded..
i want play still..
nvm loh.
i went up class then.
for maths ec.
ong not here.
lim took the class.
R. ahah!
funny only..
the mr lim is a total retarded joke.
i swear to lucifer's mum.
he has that sick weird look too..
eeee.
aaha!

alrights.
then class end damn early loh..
i no geo also.
so go canteen lepak
play guitar ..
then eat.
i love eatin btw.
=D my love.
then yea.
lepak more.
i sleep in canteen !
holy cowss...
i sure am tired.
lie down on the bench.
not the long table bench somemore.
the round table one..
walao.
can sleep leh!
i think i sleep lyk 1hr or smth lidat.
wah!
shiok !
wake up the sky dark le.
ahaha!
oohh roy and clemence were there.
ahaha

then yea.
didnt go up for nightstudies.
we talked in the canteen instead.
then the auntie was kind enugh to give us each.
a cup of tehping free.
ahaha =D so nice
thks =D

hmm..
then yea.
went home loh..
lifeless only.
ahaa

soo..
then i msg her.
she not in a good mood.
dun wanna tell me why.
didnt wanna disturb her.
so yea..
hopes sshe alrights le.

ooohh.
tmrw got sch.
goin for chem and hist lesson.
woo!
i shall get my A!
and yea.
ahh..
prelim results were quite ok for me.
but still not very happy.
i needa work harder!
jiayous!
ahha!

hmm..
guess wad.
i suddenly rmb abt things that happened ..
lyk things that happened since the start of this yr.
and its alot.
alot alot of things happened this yr for me.
and its really gr8.
=D
ok lah.
i wanna go le.
byebye.

i really wanna see you smile.

~~eugeneN~~

26 more days..

hellos.
its another 26 more days..
to olevels..
i'm chiongin.
alot.
ok mayb not so alot.
but still chiongin.
i'm tryin real hard now..
no givin up i swear to lucifer.
ahaha!

hmm..
today went to sch.
saw her.
i just went ahead.
nvmm..

hmm..
then yeap.
lessons and all..
then.
ec and stuffs.
nightstudies.
not much diff..
i dun have much to talk abt actually..
oohh..

then..
i saw her again.
at canteen while waitin for night studies..
hmm..
again.
not a hello.
anyways..
nvm..

hmm..
then yea.
i had a fruitful night studies.
i cleared my doubts with darren.
he is good.
helped me =D
i'm glad i know my electricity formula more.
ahaha!
hmmm..
then do do do.
then go home loh..
thats all uhh..

texted her.
then aft awhile byebye.
confused abt everything..
hmm..
ahhh.
dun care first.
OLEVEL!!
jiayous eugene!
must work hard!
self motivation! ROARS!

ooohh..
tmrw is friday!
TGIF!
but no!
olevel!
chiong chiong.
but i think tmrw not goin nightstudies.
goin chill with cass and all?
see how.

hmm..
guess how i'm feelin now.
very loner.
i'm lyk someone whos being forgotten totally..
nvm..

~~eugeneN~~

simple hello.

heyhey.
i'm back to this blog.
aft a day of studyin.
and usin the comp.
no guitar ehhs..
surprisin?
cause no string..
=(

hmm...
so yea.
i overslept today..
shit.
woke up and started scoldin myself..
ahaha!
then nvm loh..
used the comp awhile.
took out bio.
did some bio..
as my prelim result for bio is shit..
ahhh needa buck up for bio.
hmm..
then i did phys too.
phys prelim result was not bad.
but i wanna be better.
=D

hmm..
then yea..
i fell asleep on the table..
damn retarded..
then woke up.
did work.
use comp again..
ahhaa!
i like no life only..
hmm..
then dinner.
yea.
i'm gonna sleep soon.
so yea.
needa be able to wake up in time.
i dun wanna be at home.
but i just realised smth..

wad sista said is true.
she said she thinks alot in sch than at home.
i realised that too..
less "emo" at home.
go sch get all mix emotions in my mind.
then reach home get pekcek..
aiya...
dunno how.
but i still dun like to stay at home..
so i'll still be goin sch.

hmm..
just when i goin out for dinner.
phone vibrate.
got a sms ...
i surprise.
in my mind hopin its her.
then..
yea it is.
brought a smile to my face.
=D
then aft just 5 text..
byebye.
but ooohh wells..
although its not much.
still..
shows that she cares?
i dunno.
i hopes so..
i still have you in my heart.

alrights.
i gotta go off le.
wanna sleep..

so near yet so far.

~~eugeneN~~

i'm tired.

hmm..
okok.
so aft a long long day in sch.
from mornin till night.
in sch..
i'm back home.
facin the comp.
relaxin..
i very very tired i swear..

sooo..
today sch was pretty much the same.
all the lessons and all..
but was borin.
i slept during geo ..
mrs stevens didnt come.
so yea.
sleep loh..
no one to talk to also..
so loner nowaday..
sian lah..
nvm..

hmm..
then yea..
all the lessons.
aft ec.
slacked at canteen.
ate alot.
=D
hmm..
then talked abt stuffs.
then yea.
went up eventually to study area for night studies.
did nth.
i no mood.
damn tired.
hmm..
then went home loh..
so here i am now.

hmm..
anyways.
tmrw will be sch again!
woo!
ahaha
i love goin to sch.
except for some part.
ahaha
but overall..
its better than home.
i dun wanna stay at home..
so sian one..
eeee dun like!!!
sch =D
ahaa.

wah sian lah..
i feel so friendless leh..
my phone today..
not even a single text from anyone loh..
sian..
i think i damn loner..
haiz..
wad can i do?
no one text me.
no one bother lah..
haiz..
so fustrated..
thats why i keep sayin dig this hole
stay inside.
sian lah..

hmm..
anyways..
at least joanna text me.
but its abt the ss textbook..
but nvm..
at least got someone talk to le.
phone damn quiet loh..
so i'm just happy got someone bothered to text me.
=D

i just hope tmrw will be a better day.
i gotta cheer myself up.
no one can.
only myself..
i'll be fine.
even if it meant i'll be left alone.
urgh.
nvm..

hmm..
thats all i guess.
i'm prepared to give up.

~~eugeneN~~