wad am i doin?..

hellos..
today went to sch.
first day of sch.
surprisin no hair check!
not bad ehhs. =D

hmm..
then took some of the prelims paper back.
my purehist not bad! A2 =D
then eng sucks..
bio paper 1 sucks too..
yea..
chem was ok =D
hmm.. yea tmrw more papers.
so yeap..
then aft sch went for a talk..
some scholarship..
stupid..
IT course.
no interest at all.. boring shit..
hmm..
then went hall for some oral..
wtf .. lyk Olevel oral over le..
they still want us do this..
dun get it loh.. stupid.
but wadeva..
then done le slacked at study area.
sit there alone.
starin at blank space.
till clemence came.
talk to him.
then i continue starin at blank space.
i cant keep my eyes and mind off you.

hmm..
then yea.
talk talk talk.
then i headed home.
while ellis roy hongteck went lot1.

hmm..
ooohh didnt i blog abt sunday?
went kahmun hse tution her again.
phys.
didnt do muchs..
played ds instead.
i slept awhile
damn nice!
=D
hmm..
then watched the tv.
slacked awhile..
go to grannie's house.
ate dinner there.
chiong home.

hmm..
okok.
so no more le?
alrights.
tmrw got sch..
ec till 5plus again.
night studies for me.
dun wanna go home.
yea.
hmm..
then yea.
confirm thinkin alot tmrw again..
wadeva uhh..

ooohh..
recently..
have this thinkin.
i shall dig a hole
and just stay inside.
dun want come out..
this world is so hurtin.
found out alot of things..
all this sucks.
really really shit.
haiz..
life's not really goin well..
but ooohh well.
it still has to go on..
no choice.
i'm goin on.
pushin myself.
aft Olevel.
i needa break.
break from the books.
and from all the shits in life now.
haiz..

hmm..
guess wad i'm thinkin now?
her.
wadeva..

~~eugeneN~~

i lost all.

hmm..
another post.
today was rather ...
how shld i say?.. hmm..
monotonous day?
nth happened muchs..
just the usual..

hmm..
woke up.
slacked in the hse.
went out to eat.
back home..
slacked again..
then played the electric guitar.. without amp..
mofo..
no amp.. sucks y'all know?..
wadeva..
then i kinda dosed off in the room..
damn tired..
tired from all the shits in this life.
so yea.
took a nap..
being awhile since i had a aftnoon nap..
it was not bad..

hmm..
then i went to over to grannie's house.
ate curry chicken there.
shiok as always.
i love homecook food. <3
then slacked.
watched scary movie 4 on channel 5.
then went home with bro.
now here bloggin at 1.33am..
i really no mood to sleep.
but i still have to..
shall go bathe aft bloggin and read a jughead digest.
and head to bed. i mean.. mattress...

hmm..
ooohh..
thought of this while readin jughead digest.
it seems so fake in this comics..
they have this grp of friends.
whos always there for each other.
its not like in the real world..
in this world.
it just does not seems real.
okay.
mayb its just me..
but wadeva the case.
i dunno..
i seems to be losin everyone.
no one is there.
no one.
i'm friendless it seems..
i'm thinkin alot.
friendless and loveless..
i feel miserable .
but..
who cares a heck?!
no one to be honest..
even if someone comes sayin.
"hey! i do care you know?"
but in your mind.
you be thinkin..
"wadeva?!"

haiz..
i dunno wads wrong with me anymore.
i once told this someone.
i forgt who.
that i always look in the mirror.
and i tell myself.
i love you man!
but now.
i look at the mirror. and i ask. wtf happened to you?!..
my bro has being showin concern to me..
tellin me indirectly.
dun so emo and stuffs.
i feel it bro. thks.
but it aint gonna do anything..
you have your good life now.
thats why you can tell me to dun all this..
but i dun ..
i'm not havin a good time in life now..
i'm not like you.
your lucky.
you have people by your side.
but for me?
it seems like i dun.

well..
i have lotsa stuffs to put down here.
i'm really fucked up and feelin real down..
i dunno wad to do anymore..
its not just abt friends.
its abt a girl too.
i can say..
i like her alot.
i dunno abt her.
she dun seems to be..
i have being tellin myself to give up on her.
and my head has being sayin.
i'm givin up on her.
and i've given up.
however..
this is all but a lie from my mind.
my mind lies.
but my heart dun.
its tellin the truth.
i cant seem to give you up girl.
i cant put away all the feelins i have for you.
its really deep.
i cant stop thinkin abt you all the while..
wherever i go, wadeva i'm doin.
i keep thinkin of you.
________ .

i stared at my phone. the whole day.
and not even a single text from you.
i have thought of textin you.
but..
i dun wanna disturb you.
i dun wanna be a bother to you.
sometimes.
i even have thoughts that you dun even wanna talk to me.
you told me NO!
but i dunno..
i dunno if this is really the truth?
or are you just tryin to make me feel better?
i'm thinkin..
ooohh well..
i guess its just me..
but just rmb girl.
you tell me to let everything out of my mind.
and i'm gonna let everything out.
soon girl.
you'll see.
i'm not lettin go..
________ .

alrights.
dave's talkin to me on msn.
givin me entertainment.
and sorta gettin myself away from probs.
=D

~~eugeneN~~

you suck big time!

argh.
mum being an ass again!!
so sian you know!!
come back then show black face!
nag nag nag!!
ROARS!!
just shutup!
>=(

hmm.
today stayed at home.
no mood suddenly go out..
so i didnt go kahmun hse..
sry bunny.
i couldnt go and help you with your work..
sun.
i may go.
or i will.
make it up to you.
and help you.
><

hmm..
sooo..
i did nth today uhh..
keep starin at the comp screen..
playin my one string gone guitar..
walao!
sian..

hmm..
then now bro wanna use comp.
wah i very pekcek now.
ggrrrr...


BYE!

~~eugeneN~~

lalala.

i dunno wad to say..
hmmm..
hellos again?
hmm..
i guess so.
ahaha

hmm..
today was lidat loh.
very tired.
went to sch in the mornin..
for phys..
damn borin i tell you.
and pekcek!
mum didnt pay bill!
then i cant send sms and call out!
walao!
then i damn pissed!
then the whole day no mood i tell you..
ahaha

hmm..
but tonight is not a bad night.
aaah
quite nice.
hmm..

ok.
so yea.
aft phys is maths..
crazy.
few hrs..
nonstop maths..
walao..
damn tired and sleepy loh..
do do do..
no mood!!!

then yeap.
finally over!
yay!
ahaha
then i dun want go home!
but nobody to go out with..
pfft.
then i went home loh..
retarded..
took bus.
missed stop.
alight at clarke quay.
take train home..

now at home.
no guitar to play..
string snap.
no money.
this sucks!
i wanna get a new guitar..
i have to..
hell..
hmm..
alrights..

tmrw..
i dunno goin where.
kahmun hse?
or somewhere else?
hmm..
dunno.
tmrw then see..

hmm..
cleared some things already..
i really dunno wad i shld do now..
i'm confused.

~~eugeneN~~

dead xD

i'm back!
allrights man!

first.
i shall talk abt ytd.
which is tues! haha!
hmm...
ytd.
oooohh!
i went over to kahmun bunny hse.
ahah!
hmm..
she wanted me to tutor her sci .
alrights!
went over.
i alone you know?
walao..
ahah!
roy uhh..
tsk.
nvm..

hmm..
yea.
then go there.
i needa cool down first.
so far uhh the hse!
walao! kahmun!
then yea.
she ask me teach her chem formula.
damn hard to teach her.
but still managed uh.
ahaha!
so quite good uhh.
then phys.
didnt do much..
all the while was just slackin in the room..
then her friend come.
shi hua.
talk talk talk.
laugh laugh laugh.
alot of things uhh.
eat cup noodles cheese hotdog.
watch hannah montana.
ahah!
finished arnd 11.20 i think
i rushin off you know!
walao..
scared no train and bus.
oohh i went off with shihua.
ii kept scarin her!
ahaha!
i say got someone starin at her.
and got all the ghostly stuffs.
ahaha!
damn funnyy.
yea.
then i managed get home safe.
yeap!

hmm..
yeap.
so then today!
wed.
ahaha
its 090909!
damn cool right?
aaha!
hmm..
so i went to sch in the mornin!
wah.
i tired leh!
cannot tahan in the mornin.
ahaha
hmm..

then yea.
went for maths and phys.
walao..
phys lyk waste tym only loh..
ahaha!
but nvm lah..
at least i didnt waste tym outside right..
i did learn phys.
ahaha

hmm..
then aft that..
no one to go out eat with..
=(
then i text sista.
ask her go with me.
i dun want go home!!
ahaha!
no way am i goin home so early loh..
ahhaa
so had mac.
at lot1.
talked awhile at mac.
slack arnd.
then walked to yewtee with her.
i wanna take 961 also.
my card no money..
so no mrt for me..
ahaha

so yea.
talked to her.
oooh.
saw eugene yeo.
he rmb this eugene lim.
ahhaa!
i shocked!
ahaha!
damn cool!
=D

hmm..
then yeap.
lidat loh..
i took 961.
i didnt wanna go home.
take all the way to clarke quay.
slacked awhile at singapore river.
nice emo atmosphere.
lets me think abt stuffs.
ahaha!
and sort out my mind.

ok.
aft i dunno how many days.
________ text me.
i shocked.
but happy also.
but i still got feelin she dun wanna talk to me ..
=(
nvm.
i'll stay positive.
ahaha

hmm..
alrights then.
tmrw still got sch!
ROARS!

oooh!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVE! 090909!
cool~~~

~~eugeneN~~

dang!

shit..
blogger gettin worse i swear..
ahaha!

hmm..
anyways..
went to sch today.
ahaha!
hmm..
i woke up late know?
wah lyk sian only loh!
walao..
then nvm just go sch loh..

hmm..
didnt kena scold.
ahaha!
shiok!
so ..
yeap ..
had phys and chem.
then maths till4pm.
did bio filin..
till 5pm!
hell!
i swear it was hardcore!
damn tirin!
all that lookin arnd copyin..
i cannot take it!!

hmm..
then yea..
went to bpp.
eat with roy and clemence.
hmm..
hungry you know?!
ahaha!

hmm..
then yea..
went home loh..
ahaha

stupid day lah overall..
haiz..

i feel lyk sucha fool.
i guess..
i'm really lettin go.

~~eugeneN~~

listen to me.

hellos.
once again..
i'm back to this blog.
aaha!

hmm..
today was borin i tell you!
ok lah.
not so borin..
ahhaa
but i yea..

hmm..
so i woke up at12!
walao.
damn late loh..
ahaha
hmm...
but anyways..
then slacked awhile at home.
then went to tiong bahru plaza for lunch with family.
ahha
ate mos burger
its been a long tym ehhs?
aahah =D
it was a gr8 lunch.
just that my bloody 5yrs old bro..
mofo.
irritatin!

then yea.
walked arnd loh..
bought my bag!
ahaha =D
finally have a better lookin bag..
ahaha!
am i happy!
=D
but..
i still want smth else.
ahaha
shall not bother mum to buy it.
buy myself.
aaha!

hmm..
then bought donuts from donut factory.
yay!
damn shiok!
ahah =D
woo.
ate alot today.
aahaha!!

hmm..
then yeap.
went home.
then go over to popo hse.
then yea.
slacked awhile.
then ate dinner.
headed back home with bro.
my 15yrs old bro.
ahaha
not 5 yrs old de.
he gotta stay there!
ahaha =D

alrights man..
i have got sch tmrw!
shit man..
so yea loh..
i guess i gotta go soon..
hmm...

bye!

~~eugeneN~~