i have nothing to lose if i died right now.

well..
i feel fucked up.
i dunno wad the fuck is wrong.
just fucked up.

shit everything.
i hate my life.
nothing is goin well.

i'm wasting life away.
no motivations in life.
no nothing in life.
i have nothing important.
nothing to treasure.
i can just leave this world now.
and have no regrets.

i'm a emo loner .
thats right.
thats wad i am.
and i like it.

and i need something to motivate me.
i need some kinda counselling.
or mayb just someone to talk to.
you know.
sims has needs.
social needs.
i need that too.
i needa talk to someone.
well.
but theres no one.

FML.

everything is so dead now.
i hope the world gets infested with zombies!
everyone turns to zombie!
i'll be fighting zombies! YAY!
so fun!
and the whole world mine!
cause everyone is a infested!
nice.

i like being alone.
but not too muchs.
i need social needs.

bye!

~~eugeneN~~

i really need a damn life!

well.
saw that my last post was last week.
soooo decided to just do a little update here.

hmm..
soo anyways .
hols now.
and its soo fucking boring!
nth to do everyday!
for once i would rather go sch!
sooo bored!

then yah.
everyday at home doin nth!
slack arnd.
play pes.
watch videos.
sleep at 5am.
wake up 2pm.
screwed up routine now.

really need a life!
need smth to do!
soo i have decided on smth!
shall run everyday!
but i doubt i'll keep to it. hahaha!
too lazy also!
fucked up life.

well..
now.
i'm lookin forward to nth.
everyday wake up.
nth to look forward to.
theres no motivation in life.
i just dunno wad to do with it.
hmm..
i really need a plan.
i wanna cook.
i wanna be a chef!
well.
just havin my own store.
selling food i cook!
how cool!

well.
keep dreaming!

fuck it.
dunno wad to type le.
i just wanna faster finish my sims 3 ambitions download!
then see if it can install with my sims 3.
hopefully sooo!

aft sims 3 ambitions.
mayb downloading world adventures too.
and then yah.
play.

wad a life i have.
really.
fucked up.
dun feel like living.
wanna die.
somebody kill me.
hope i die in my sleep.
i dun mind.
i have nth to look forward to.
no one to love.
i have no regrets if i die.

peace out.

~~eugeneN~~

my hair looks like shit right here!


biker gang! i like this photo! ahha


and of course! i like this photo best!
very nice!
cant see my eyes one! ahahha!

soo then.
yah those are the photos.
from the outing to ktv and east coast.
how cool! ahhaha

hmm..
sooo today had fico!
no time to cut my hair in the morning.
then went there.
and guess wad.
my hairband snapped into half.
basket.
played with my vision blurred by the hairssss!
sooo irritating!

goin for a cut tmrw morning!
thats if i manages to wake up early enugh tmrw!
cut le go soccer training.

hmm..
fico today.
not bad.
quite good.
my touches still sucks.
passes sucks.
shots sucks.
i suck.
i cant play.
thats the main pt.
trying to up my game.
tryin to improve.

hmm..
then yah.
aft that
went to fir hse!
for some hariraya visiting!
his family is lovely.
very nice ppl!
food was dope!
very nice!
and eat till damn full!
now still damn full!
can you imagine?! ahha

then yah.
watched white chicks there.
funny show.
then yah . talked talked here here.
then home!
went to int take 963 home.

ooohh one thing i gotta say!
i'm gettin stares from ppl.
cause of my hair.
i think.
but i'm very right abt stares from ppl!
see my hair.
covering my eyes.
very UNCOMMON meh?
sooo nice to stare?
but yah.
ppl keep look at me like got prob lidat.
my hair lah please.
but if you girl.
look uhh. hahahah!
dun mind.
i'm just smile back at you. =D ahahhaha!

sooo yah.
thats all i wanna say.
tmrw training!
sian! very tired!
ankle hurts.
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

i'm still dreaming!

Outing with homies!

well hellos!
gotta update!
abt the outing and life.
soooo.. yah!

hmm..
firstly !
is tues outing !
with grace aizhen yvonne hean and pang.
wastedd that boonsheng cannot come!
exams exams.
sp laoya. hahaha!

anyways .
back to the point.
went to katong shopping centre!
sing karaoke there! ahah
fun!
and cheap there also!
very good!
sing sing sing! fun!
i like!
i like mic hogger!
all the songs also want sing. haha!

then aft that .
east coast!
went there to cycle!
and take photos here there.
my hair flying back!
like lion mane! haha!
damn cool!
then yah!
all the photos with grace.
hope she uploads them soooon!
i wanna grab them!
nice only!

then yah!
dinner at some jap restaurant.
not bad uhh.
my drink 1buck gone so fast.
then food . not bad.
beef terriyaki don.
not filling to me.
but okay lah.
i like yvonne cap!
i want get a cap.
but like those.
ermm. dunno how say.
not those ahbengs and mats wear those.
i want like.
wad bboys wear.
those nicer.

sooo yah.
aft dinner went to.
dunno wads the shoppin centre called.
walked arnd.
go giant.
shop shop .
then yah.
bused home with pang.
he took cab when reached my hse. haha! jokes!

sooo yah!
one of the best outing we had!
i like !
everyone enjoyed also.
nice!
=DD

sooo then yah.
had a good time!
cant wait for our next outing!
i hope we stay tgt and dun forget each other in the future. =D

hmm..
then ytd.
went to west mall.
aft jeremy exam.
say want watch movie.
meet up with roy and jeremy there.
in the end.
late.
no good movies.
sooo decided not to watch.
went mac.
and just talk.
BAND!
FIRETRUCK!
woo! this is serious shit!
i'm takin it serious!
we just need recruit val to be our drummer!
and need a volx.
done!
we have a band.
got manager also - jeremy. hahaha
pro!
set to go!

hmm.. then yah.
today had work.
sooo boring and sleepy!
took my own sweet time to get things done.
keep goin toilet slack there. hahha!
so sian!

then tmrw!
FICO!
but i cutting my hair in the morning first.
get it cut.
go fico !
woo!
i wonder how i'll look aft i cut my hair.
not muchs diff i think.
just short abit .

sooo then yah.
i dun wanna type anymore.
time to go off!
and play pes! ahha
team too pro! xDD

byebyes!

photos from the outing will be up.
aft grace uploadssss them! hehe

~~eugeneN~~

if only.

i'm not gonna be santa this year.
i need love!

making no sense of this life.

well.
sooo.
i just got up.
and i just thought i had to update this thing

yah.
sooo.
exams over.
nth do.
sooo slack now.
asking my sis for work .
hope there is .
mayb 2days a week bah.
sustain my money in the bank.

and yah.
sat had no soccer.
thought have.
in the end dun have.
soo then yah.
ashvin mum cooked for us again!
very nice his mum.
we didnt even say we goin she just cook.
and food was great.

hmm..
then soo yah
i dunno wad to say le.
i need to get rich.
i need a new life.
i need lotsa things in life.
but i dun get them.
BYE

~~eugeneN~~

your world is my world.

hey yo!
sooo wadup?

came here in the middle of the night to blog.
its like 2am now.
whoa whoa whoa!
been sleeping sooo late.
like normal routine already.
sleep late.
i dun like to sleep early.
its just weird.

unless..
if i have my own room.
if i got own room i may just sleep early.
or i can just dun sleep at all! xDD

sooo anyways!
exams over bitches! wooo!
whos happy for me?!?
okay lah . no one.

sooo means i have hols already!
as in officially!
no need touch any books for like !
1month plus.
shiok bo?!?! hahahah
and means!
more slacking!
but gonna continue work at sis place.
ask here if got stuffs not.
then yah.
arnd 45bucks a day from 10am to 6pm.
okay mah.
also nnot say need travel till super far.
i dun mind!

got money can le!
this cash can help me survive!
and get a guitar! =DD

hmm..
sooo anyways.
aft my last paper.
which was on wed.
had kbox session with poly friends.
fun!
sing sing sing!
and they danced to korean songs. haha!
hilarious shit!
ooohh wells! i dun listen korean song!
sooo i dunno wad songs were those. haha
and yah.
guess the first song i choose!
JUSTIN BIEBER one time! ahahha!
i like that song!
nice!

i figured out the song on guitars and can play le.
soo easy. 2chords. capo 5.
no kick. hahaha!
i sounds sooo corky.
but anyone who plays guitar will say the same thing!

sooo then yah.
aft kbox.
soccer with the usuals.
i still sucksss!
like seriously!
but learnt a thing or 2 from ryan.
abt how to defend!
nice!
now i can see when defending! aaahha

sooo then yah.
just now went to clarke quay.
sooo many ppl!
siao one.
sooo crowded!
but yah.
see girls uhh. ahhaha!
as usual.
go anywhere. girls.
\m/!

then yah. homed.
walk from clementi.
scary shit.
keep thinkin that there will be xtra shadow.
you know.

hmm.. sooo then yah.
tmrw soccer again.
sat soccer again.
how hardcore can this get?!
even more hardcore! =D

byebyes!

~~eugeneN~~

if only. if only. if only.
your world is my world.

wadeva shit now.

hey!
just want to say.
i'm screwed for this 2 papers on tues and wed.
TEC and ELS.
screwed.
i dun think i'm gettin A anymore.
esp TEC!
tec cannot score. dunnowhy!
wellwellwell...

sooo then.
yah!
finish the 2 papers.
and then yah!
slack slack slack !

and sooo.
got a new game.
damn fun!
i like! =DD

hmm..
oohh !
did i mention?!?
found a lizard frozen alive in the freezer!
fucking sick!
but cool also!
the lizard coverd in ice particles.
stone. ahahha!
cooool!

and i'm confirm cutting my hair by this week!
no more procrastination!
time to get a cut.
toooooo long! i dun like le.
gettin back that bieber mob hairstyle.
yah. soooo =D
see how it goes.

and yah!
byes!
needa go off.
tmrw exams.
wish me lucks! =D

~~eugeneN~~

if only i could rewind time..