Mud and Determination and ANGER!

hellos.
the time now is 12.47am.
and i dun wanna sleep.
i have no mood to sleep.
and i have no mood to go sch ..
sian!

wells..
soooo.. ytd soccer training was just very messy.
very fucked up!
seriously..
first..went to west view..
wait so long then the fucking guy sports council never came.
nabei!
we go back teck whye.
then there fucking muddy lah!
well..
just had to train on..

then..
started with some fucked up passing drill..
which was damn messy.
and then crossing shit.
when our pass already sucked.
then..
finally organised things up.
but still not that good..

field was fucked up.
MUDDY SHIT!
i ran thru the mud man.
was aft the long and high thru ball.
stupid mud make me sink into the ground i then lost my speed and timing ..
could not get that first touch!
and this happened ALOT of times!
seriously got damn pekcek and angry!
then dribble also like sooo shit! mud make the ball stuck there.
how move?!?!?!
siann..
worst training ever.

hope next sat conditions will be better!
i'm fighting to get into the first team.
i dun wanna be dropped.
i shall work harder.
play a more physical game.
and improve my touches and positionings.
and shots.
and my crosses.
and i shall play 90mins of football fun!
dear god.
please help me with this! =D

love football.
my life. my passion. togetther with music!

bye!
tmrw sch.

~~eugeneN~~

this is a discrimination!

great time!

hellos hellos!
well..
i had a good time today!
except for the boring sch part! haha!

sooo!
woke up early in the morning for sch.
as usual! was late..
well.. couldnt bother much!
sooooo BORING the lesson can!
falling asleep loh!

then break and all..
and yea. practical was actually not bad today.
formed a whole circuit for our fluorescent lamp!
cooooool!
gotta fix wad earth wire live wire neutral wire.
alot of shits .
but yea.. cool!

hmm..
then went to atrium wait for hean.
damn long! haha
oooohh wellss..

then head to ashvin home!
for the main thing of today! =DD
i love it man!
party!!! ahha

had loads of food! YUM!
and the bee hoon his mum cooked was awesome!
i love it!
and we had pizza and chicken!
woooottss!
like shiok man!
not like. IT IS!
ahahahha! =DD

then we had jamming all over the hse.
then match start!
HOLLAND!!
wooo!! brazil scored first.
i celebrated the goal with the brazil side of the team. haha!
then!
holland scored twice to win the match!
i celebrated too! with the holland side. hahaha!
wooo!! damn high!
keep screaming like mad!!

then this guy kept pointing laser into the hse!
went to the window to threaten the guy! haha!
humji kia.
hide behind curtain nia.
come out lah! _l_

wells.
then yea.. i went home!
go take 963.
and i fucking missed my stop.. -.-"
go till NUH!
lucky not far away.
BUT! impossible to walk..
went to see other side busstoop.
and i'm lucky still got bus go back.
and voila!
i'm home BIATCH!
\m/

hmm..
sooo thats pretty much of today.
it'll be sat!
and means!
training for HERMANOZ!
wooots!
at west view!
i wanna be early tmrw!
i hope i can!
ahhaha! =DD

sooo..
nowww..
i'm gonna go off.
and play pes.
then off to sleep.
nights.

~~eugeneN~~

wtf muchs!

hellos.
its the 2nd day of sch reopen.
and today was just sleepyyyyyy..

as i'm typing here now.
japan is goin into their penalty shootout!
and i'm fucking nervous now!
i dun want them to lose!
i want them to win !
GO JAPAN!
GANBARIMASU!

GOGOGO!!
okay.
back to match.
i'll leave this here.

post the final result here.
FUCK.
I FUCKING goin cry le.
BYE.

~~eugeneN~~

i'm unwanted. i'm invisible.

no hellos today.
i feel fucked up tonight.
suckssss!! =((

haizz..
sooo today had soccer again.
play play play.
i felt soooo pissed off.
seriously.

then yea..
finished at arnd 7.
or 6plus?
cannot rmb.
team talk for dunno how llong.
then went get food and off to ashvin hse.
eat there.
watch south korea match.

and sucks!
2-1.
i emo liaoss.
=(((
its unlucky for korea.
haizz..
nvm.
JAPAN! please!
and USA!
please thrash uruguay!
i hate guays!
and japan will win paraguay!

sooo now..
i dunno wad to say le..
but..
i just wanna say.
my existence in this world is not impt .
thats all.
let me die please.
kill me god.

~~eugeneN~~

i learn smth new today! \m/

hellos!
i did enjoyed myself today at the workshop! =DDD

well..
i went there and no ones there yet.
sooooo .. damn paiseh.
i wait till got someone reach. haha
then i go in..

and yeap!
all the slides and talks.
then finally can play!
make my own terrarium!
wooooo!! =DDD
fun ehhs!
yeap!
i wanna grow fungi in my terrarium also!
so i put wood inside it. haha!
=DDD

hmm..
then learn how to fold a grasshopper from coconut leave.
cooll ehhs! =DD
its complicated but not that hard.
i like this workshop!!
had lunch!
and yeap!
eat eat talk talk.

then yeap.
back to more folding.
and off i go home!

and they told me i'm the only yr 1 who went.
shit!
ahhaha!
but cool uhh.
not a wasted day.
i like! =DD
know more ppl le! cool!

hmm..
sooo yeap..
tmrw got training.
whoa!
3.30pm.
goin early. i think? ahha!
wellss..

anyways..
hols ending.
i hate this..
means back to sch..
sucks muchs!

i feel like quittin sch..
OKAY!
stop whining.
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

another day of life.

well hellos .
whos here??
give me a shout out yo!
aahha

soooo anyways..
today was..
shld i say good?
nah!
i'll just say..
lidat orh. haha!

morning was raining!
went to rayna's hse.
jayne haifa and rafidah all there le..
sooo yea.
i'm the lastest. hahaha! =/

well anyways..
do project!
like nth muchs..
they keep having their girl talks.
i dun even know wad they saying..
then order pizza!
woots!
long time since i ate that..
sooo yeap.
her hse got cat.
scary shit.
dun like cat. hahaha!

hmm.. wells.
played her guitar.
i didnt know she had a guitar.
lucky i asked. hahaha!
hmm..
then yea. left at 3.30pm.
WALK TO CC HAVE SOCCER!!

soccer for dunno how many crazy hrs.
shiok!
i like!
i think i'm defending better now.
heading better.
but still sucks!
i suck.
no doubt abt that.

well..
soooo yea..
played till like dunno wad time.
i think 7plus.
frm like aftnoon.
hardcore siol! ahaha
then yea..
had dinner at lot1.
annndd yea...

walked to bp frm cck and then took bus home.
now i'm home.
and i'm shagged.
well ..
wtf muchs.
i hate my life.

hmm..
soooo yea.
i'm watching south korea match lata at 2.30am.
wish me luck.
in staying awake. haha!

byebyes!

~~eugeneN~~

theres no meaning in life for me anymore.

well well well..
wads this post abt?
NOTHING.

i have nth in life anymore..
life sucks.
i hate life.
i hate my life.
i wanna quit school.
i wanna just go to some countryside.
and just stay there.
have a carefree life.
maybe just start a lawn mowing business.
andd earn quick bucks to survive..

BUT!
its impossible.. =((

well at least i have soccer.
had ss ytd !
i was freaking late.
stupid bus 30.
and 172.
nabei!

ooohh well..
sooo then i reached there they say they goin elsewhere to play..
went all the way to lam soon.
played there.
and sooooo..
till 10.
then go dinner.
and home!

OOOOHH!!
WE SAW DAWN!!
OMGGGG!!
THAT ACTRESS!
SHE IS SOOOOO FREAKING CHIO IN LIFEEEE!!
damn chio!
we keep starin. hahahhaaha! xDD

but!
didnt take photo with her.
cause ..
ahaha! i also dunno why.
bui gan.
ahahhaah!
and soooo sweaty aft soccer somemore.
well well well..
wasted chance.

hmm..
and yea..
today..
i practically slacked at home..
boring muchs!
but yea..
supposed to go out..
but i dun have any money to spenddd.. =((
thats why my life totally sucks now!

hate it..
i wanna go jump down from a tall building and just end my life.
or mayb someone just murder me can?
or bang me with a car.
in any case.
just kill me.
end my sufferings.

WAIT!
BUT I HAVEN HAD SEX!
i wanna fuck before i die. hahahahahha! xDD

jokes!
okay!
enugh with the nonsense.

byes.
i shall get famous.
and have a better life.

~~eugeneN~~