i guess..

hellos.
i'm back le!
soooo tired..

hmm..
anyways..
today mornin went to sch..
for bio and chem consultation..
i did abit of chem..
then off i went to meet the others at woodlands..
ellis roy hean vanessa hongteck yaowei
and someother who we meet them..
but they didnt go east coast..
hmm.. anyways..
we walked arnd causeway..
then we set off for east coast..
bloody long tripp..
can die i tell you..
but i swear.. 176 is worst. haha!
so i'm used le loh..they not. haha!

hmm..
okok..
then reached le the feelin very weird.
makes me think of small that time..
got some recollection of being there before..
hmm..
really fun time.
haiz.. how i wish..
nvm..

okok then.
reached the beach there le.
walked damn long loh! walao..
then horh find a place settle down..
then ellis and vanessa and hongteck go rent and ride bike.
i play guitar.
ahaha
roy too and nick and hean yaowei all stay behind.
then they gamble. not me. i dun gamble.. cause like borin only.
lose money also de.. dun waste my money on gambling. haha
i needa save up to buy my guitar.. haha

oooh wells. then they came back..
ellis had to go home.
so roy had to send her home.
then byebye to them loh.
ahaha
then left us.
go mac eat..
and mcspicy with cheese is gr8! i no kiddin de loh!
walao damn nice uhh. haha
hmm..
then yeap..
i took a bus to grannie's hse.
then i went home aft that.
tired know?

hmm...
then yeap now i at home le.
ahahaa
alrights..
so ..
life sucks nowaday..
nothing goes well..
but i guess thats the way...
nth i can do abt it..
haiz..

hmm..
i think i have gotten over you.
but everytime i see your name or just seein you..
my mind is filled up with thoughts..
occassionally, i too will be thinkin of you..
but soon.
i'll get over you.

anyways..
i'm really sleepy now.

~~eugeneN~~

i'm tryin..

hmm..
alrights.
another post.
ooohh!
if you readin this post..
read the previous one first.
esp sista.
must read!! =D

hmm..
okok..
so today.
bloody kena woke up by mum and sis..
they went gentin..
4++ am then so noisy..
i swear man...
got pissed.
but still got back to sleep.
ahaha
then yea
usual stuffs and went to sch le loh.
ahha =D

hmm..
shit i cant rmb wad happened today..
oooohh!
exam mass in the mornin.
it was okay i guess..
yeap..
the band that played sucks.
no offense.
but yeap.

hmm..
then yea.
had ss.. which is stupid..
then PE! woo!
played soccer.
had a not bad game.
scored 1.
then made loads of passes..
which hean failed time and time again to receive..
tsk.. haha! jokes jokes game only.
nothing one.

hmm..
then yeap.
got all those lessons loh..
och went berserk in emaths.
hist was borin.. so sleepy.. mr chiu was tired too..
so teach till left abt 10mins of time left..
he stopped. let us slacked. haha!
cool huh? =D
then yea. had bio..
which was ok too.. did worksheet with jeremy koo
then walao..
aft that..
i went play bball.
wait so long i can play.
then bloody monkey lee say sec4 get out.
cannot play..
wtf?!
discrimination! we needa relax know! walao!

then nvm loh.
walao..
then that a_____ .
fuckin very angry at her loh..
ask me follow her go canteen buy drinks.
i ask her treat me green tea.
she at first say okay.
then reach there say cannot..
fuck?! then she buy for her cac friends.
kaobei. then ask me take.
think i your slave?! nabei i not happy !
bloody hell..
still keep sayin wad ~buddy how many yrs?~ fuck !
you just a 2 face bitch!

then nvm.
went for emaths ec.
Mr. Rr ahha!
if you heard him pronounce R you will understand.
damn retarded that teacher..
like wtf uhh..
so basket..
tryin to act one big fuck in the class.
act fierce infront of us.
kaobei lah!
go home lah bastard! think you who?!
then aft the lesson call OCH somemore.
wtf was that suppose to mean?!
pfft.

nvm.
then had no geo ec.
shiok only!
then i was with homies chan, tay and kwok =D
royette was with ellis so i didnt wanna disturb them.
then dunno where royette go le.
nvm lohhh..
stayed with my homies.
had laughs and talks with them.
so now i have food marathon with homies aft Olevel.
oooh and food marathon with sista. but that i dunno..
not sure.. confirm busy with royette. haha ..
hmm..

ooohh! then there were some snacks at the study area.
ms tiu ask us all to finish all.
woo!
then dianne was there.
i ask her who de.
then walao..
give me the ans..
________ .
wtheck.. i speechless.
i replied oohh.
walao lah. i wonder still got who know loh..
tsk.. this sucks.
but yea.
i'm gettin over it lah..
slowly.
i can do it!

hmm..
then yeap.
chan, tay and kwok went home..
i thought mayb i will say for night studies..
but i lonely..
nobody stay de.. so borin..
then nvm loh..
i went home instead..
bought my dinner as mum and sis are in gentin!
woo! shiok lah they not in singapore for 3days! woo!
i happy know?
then they will get stuff back! =D
hmm..
but i wanna go gentin play..
but nvm loh..
next time .
aft my Olevel. ahaha

hmmm..
okok le loh.
i guess i have nth to post le loh.
but yea..
lately i have been feelin very heavy..
as in my heart and mind..
very heavy..
alot of things inside ..
but i cant let them out..
as i dun wanna spoil feelins.
so yea..
i just have to keep it inside me loh..
haiz..
i need to throw them away..

~~eugeneN~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLIS!

walao..
cannot upload pic for sista.
nvm nvm.
anyways..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTA =D

sweet 16 worh!
may all your wishes and dreams come true.
and may you and royette stay strong!
=D
thats all i can say for you.
thou we dun talk much now...
still sista sista alrights?
=D

see you tmrw for your celebration! =D

~~eugeneN~~

i feel so hurt.

haiz..
did not have a good day.
today sucks.
seriously sucks.
nth went well.
haiz..

okok.
i still gotta go on with life..
so i had a stupid bad day..
was not myself..
haiz..
mayb cause the msg from her last night..
haiz..
i dun wish to say here.
you know who and wad you ask me abt it loh..
but yea..
1knife stab into my heart.
but oohh well..
i already know its gonna be lidat.
but yea..

soo..
i'm seriously gonna forget all abt it le.
hmm..
i'll pick myself up.
have done it many times.
and this time too..
i'll do it.

hmm...
alrights.
today..
had all the lessons and all..
and yea.
productive day.
got to learn much stuffs.
and yea.
but not a good day.

hmm..
ec was stupid thou.
english was drawin on my worksheet..
ahaa!
so i didnt do..
dun care lah.
english only..
then ss was slack..
talk nonsense at the back of avt.
then yeap ..
aft that.
with sista and homie chan at canteen.
boonsheng was there too.
then reg and kat joined for kat to go up for chem aft awhile.
slacked. shared "love".
you know wad love i'm talkin abt?.
bet you dun.

this love.
its lidat.

my motto.
Food is Love and Anything that can get me Food is Love.
thus ..
money is love.
food is love.
and wad abt true love you may ask..
true love is but a thing.
a thing which hurts.
but still it brings joy.
i dun have it.
wadeva..

hmm..
then night studies..
wadeva..
did maths.
then lidat loh..

haiz..
i really very not myself.
ahhhhhhhhh!!
is everyone lidat when they have love?..

~~eugeneN~~

wait for me girl.

i'm tired.
soooooo exhausted from all the studyin.
phew.
i need a breather.
but not now..
21more days to Olevel.
have being countin down.
ahhaa

hmm
but anyways.
gettin to take a small breather on sat.
i hope its good.
but surely i'll be some retarded outcast de lah..
but nvm loh.
for you sista.
so i go.
=D
so i needa get present..
dang..
i no money..
haiz..

hmm..
then yeap.
today as usual went to sch.
mornin.
step into class my mood went bad i tell you.
kaobei.
shall not elaborate on it.
then yeap.
had all the fucked up lessons.
all soooo borin i swear in the name of lucifer.
its bloody stupid.
did my graph.
then yea.
ahaa
wadeva..
i think i have nth to blog here loh..
walao..

hmm..
but yea.
ec was ok today.
bio.
did stupid paper.
then done.
then night studies was good.
very productive.
i cleared my doubts abt chem. =D
am i glad.
i wanna do well man!
determination!! ROARS!!
yeap.

ooohhh..
i've found my homies
ahah!
Ziying, Dulcie, Yuxuan, Jiawan
my homies when i'm alone.
ok mayb not really..
but at least i had company when i'm left alone today.
thks homies =D
andandand.
that chan.
gave me a name..
cause she say she adopt me...
guess wad?
Darius Nakamura Chan yujiayingciesha
ahaha!
damn funny!!
and shes being callin me that.
ahaha!
but oohh well.
am i glad they accepted me into the grp.
i was damn bloody loner lah..
lucky lucky.
or i'll be all emo nemo durin ec and the rest of the night..
phew.

hmmm..
i have a bad feelin now..
but i'm ready for it.
i dunno..
argh..
very very very bad feelin ..
shit..
AHHHHHH!!
i needa scream!!
but i cant..
cant let my family know i'm in sucha state..
gotta act all smiley infront of them all..
haiz..
its hard being myself in this house..

hmm..
okok.
i dun wanna comment anything more in this post le.
so yea.
i'm really havin a real real bad feelin..
god..
i'm dyin.
wad are you thinkin girl??
haiz..

~~eugeneN~~

anyhow anyway.

okay all.
i'm here again.
today was stupid.
i keep tellin myself to study.
but i dunno wad to study..
was thinkin ..
alot of subs.
i wanna study.
i dunno wad to start on..
then also like dunno how to start on it.
ahaha

hmm..
oohh.
i have it planned out for Olevel maths.
aft science pract Os, there will be like 5days of no exams?
so i'll be chiongin maths .
intensive maths .
so now i'm puttin maths aside.
cause i think i can manage bah for maths.
so i'll put it aside.
then concentrate on other subs now..
like my bio..
holy shits.
and my geo..
haiz..
needa buck up!
and everyone else!!
ahaha

hmm..
so..
today was playin guitar whole day.
i can tune to dropD le!
yays! so can play alot songs.
alot all time low songs.
ahaa =D
hmm..
then yea.
can play weightless.
i like! and dear maria. =D
woo!

okok.
apart from guitars.
i used the comp and just slacked loh..
phone very quiet the whole day.
argh wadeva..
siansiansian!!
haiz..

hmm..
then yeap.
my mind is so mixed up.
i dunno wad i'm thinkin..
but anyways.
its still abt the same thing.
haiz..
life is stupid for me now.
people driftin from my life..
all floatin away..
i'm so alone i feel.
i have nth anymore.
nth.
only myself.
i'm tryin to get out of this hole.
but i cant.
i'm locked up inside.

love is outside this hole.
i want it.
but they dun want me to haave it.
i'm at my wits end.
i dunno wad to do le.
i guess..

i needa get a life.
its not healthy.
thinkin so much.
worryin so much.
being so shit and all..
its not healthy.
i need to get upbeat.
so ..
i dunno..

~~eugeneN~~

wow.

alrights.
i'm here once again to blog.
its been a stupid day i guess.
i woke up damn late loh..
soooo stupid.
walao..
like one whole day wasted i swear.
anyways..
i still have to get on with the day.
used the comp and all..

ooohh.
did i mention this?
i can play the electric guitar le.
got the plug.
just plug into the hifi set.
there! the sound comes out.
so now..
everyday jammin at home.
aha!
cant study de.
hmm..
so yeaps.
so you shld know i played the guitar at home also.
ahaha!
shiok know?
woo!

hmm..
alrights.
slacked at home.
then went for dinner.
lidat loh..
very retarded lah..
hmm..
mayb tmrw goin to work.
get some cash.
=D i wanna get my guitar.
electric guitar.
then jam with bro at home.
ahaha!
shiok leh!
but first get my acoustic first.
more practical.
can bring out jammin at some wuluwulu place with the guys.
and can serenade girls ok!
ahaha!

hmm..
anyways.
20+ days to Os.
wow.
its near uhh?
but yea.
i'm quite ready for it le.
i think.
i just needa clear a few doubts in chem and phys.
then do abit better for emaths.
and yea.
humanities just needa do better for geo.
no more last min man..
ahaha! and yea.
my bio..
i dunno how le..
just lidat loh bio.
i'll do wad i can..
no promise thou..
lucky i have a B3 for chinese le.
can count on it.
=D

hmm..
so now..
its 1am le..
wow. so late..
my gums hurts.
dunno why..
shitbag.
hate this..

ooohh.
MANCHESTER UNITED WON!! 4-3 in your face!
man city is a rip off!!
fuck off city!
and i still love you Wigan! =D

hmm..
ooohhh.
i wanna tell this person.
this sentence.
FASTER STUDY!
STOP WASTING TIME AWAY !
BUCK UP MAN. STUDY NOW THEN CAN ENJOY LE.
this is to royette.
ehhs brother. dun wanna see you retain.
buck up man.

alrights.
i dunno wad to type here anymore.
oohh.
once and once again.
i failed.
=(

~~eugeneN~~