not bad..

hellos!
how have you all being?
i mean..
whoevers reads my blog...
which i dun think much people..
cause this link not much people knows.. (i think)
and yea..

hmm..
i've being fine..
my mind and heart feels lighter now..
woo! so relieved =D
seems like all is goin well..
although i do have some recurrin feelins..
but yea..
slowly ..

alright alrights..
soooo..
i didnt go schh today..
so wasted at home.. tsk.
i woke up late again.. how stupid of me..
haiz.. then nvm loh..
i didnt study..
was too lazy you see..
ahaha
then yeapp..
i didnt miss much lessons..
as today is monday..
slackin monday.. haha
everyone was havin elearnin..
so yea..
all complainin abt it.. haha!
lucky me i no needa do. haha!

hmm..
tmrw is misson day!
slack day at sch..
except for ec. aaha
and night studies..
so yea!
i hope tmrw will be a better day..
i have being feelin better..
and i hope tmrw i wont be a emo asshole in sch..
ahaha!! jokes jokes.
hmm..

wadeva the case..
i rmb i still owes sista present..
and homie chan birthday is wed..
and bunny kahmun birthday is on fri..
hell..
loads of present to buy..
dang..
and kahmun wants a teddy..
exp leh..
ROARS!!

hmm..
olevel in just 2weeks or soo.. wooo
its creepin in le..
sooo fast!
but its good!
can faster get it done with..
then party!! woo!
=D
i wonder if prom is still on.. hmm..
i want prom! damn cool~
hmm..

okok..
i dunno wad to say le..
but yea..
bye i guess?
oooohh and i think i wanna open my blog. haha!
very quiet here..
nvm..
i'll think abt it..

~~eugeneN~~
i wonder how are you now..
its being a long time since i talked to you..
hmm...

once again.

yea man.
hellos y'all!
i'm here again!
to blog abt all !
ahahah =D

alrights..
so mum and sis is comin le!
woo!
does that means stuffs for me?
i do hope so know? =D
they will be back in awhile..
mayb in 30mins time? hmm..

anyways..
ok..
they just came back..
fuckin irritatin i swear..
mum being an ass again..
sian i tell you..
rather they dun come back i swear! tsk
siansiansian!!

nvm..
i got sch tmrw!
whole sch havin elearnin day!
we 4/1 4/2 and 5/1 have to come sch for normal lessons.
ahaha its better than elearnin.
yay!
i rather go sch thats why its good.
ahaha! =D
elearnin is stupid i swear..
so goodluck man all. aha!

hmm..
sooo today i slept till 1pm plus! then i wake up.
ahaha damn retarded..
then i studied abit. did some papers..
then used the comp play guitar and all..
then i went to grannie's house for dinner.
hmm.. then now i am home loh..
tmrw sch..
i wanna sleep soon le.

but yeap.
i dun want sleep so soon..
so yea..

ooohh.
i'm readin yakuza moon again.
gr8 book.
i likey! =D
so sexcitin! ahah!
damn cool loh!

oohh..
chewin guitar pick very nice. haha!
damn shiok! i swear! really no kiddin one!
ahaha!

okok..
i got nth to post le.
so borin.. bye!
off to read Inuyasha manga again. haha =D

~~eugeneN~~

i guess..

hellos.
i'm back le!
soooo tired..

hmm..
anyways..
today mornin went to sch..
for bio and chem consultation..
i did abit of chem..
then off i went to meet the others at woodlands..
ellis roy hean vanessa hongteck yaowei
and someother who we meet them..
but they didnt go east coast..
hmm.. anyways..
we walked arnd causeway..
then we set off for east coast..
bloody long tripp..
can die i tell you..
but i swear.. 176 is worst. haha!
so i'm used le loh..they not. haha!

hmm..
okok..
then reached le the feelin very weird.
makes me think of small that time..
got some recollection of being there before..
hmm..
really fun time.
haiz.. how i wish..
nvm..

okok then.
reached the beach there le.
walked damn long loh! walao..
then horh find a place settle down..
then ellis and vanessa and hongteck go rent and ride bike.
i play guitar.
ahaha
roy too and nick and hean yaowei all stay behind.
then they gamble. not me. i dun gamble.. cause like borin only.
lose money also de.. dun waste my money on gambling. haha
i needa save up to buy my guitar.. haha

oooh wells. then they came back..
ellis had to go home.
so roy had to send her home.
then byebye to them loh.
ahaha
then left us.
go mac eat..
and mcspicy with cheese is gr8! i no kiddin de loh!
walao damn nice uhh. haha
hmm..
then yeap..
i took a bus to grannie's hse.
then i went home aft that.
tired know?

hmm...
then yeap now i at home le.
ahahaa
alrights..
so ..
life sucks nowaday..
nothing goes well..
but i guess thats the way...
nth i can do abt it..
haiz..

hmm..
i think i have gotten over you.
but everytime i see your name or just seein you..
my mind is filled up with thoughts..
occassionally, i too will be thinkin of you..
but soon.
i'll get over you.

anyways..
i'm really sleepy now.

~~eugeneN~~

i'm tryin..

hmm..
alrights.
another post.
ooohh!
if you readin this post..
read the previous one first.
esp sista.
must read!! =D

hmm..
okok..
so today.
bloody kena woke up by mum and sis..
they went gentin..
4++ am then so noisy..
i swear man...
got pissed.
but still got back to sleep.
ahaha
then yea
usual stuffs and went to sch le loh.
ahha =D

hmm..
shit i cant rmb wad happened today..
oooohh!
exam mass in the mornin.
it was okay i guess..
yeap..
the band that played sucks.
no offense.
but yeap.

hmm..
then yea.
had ss.. which is stupid..
then PE! woo!
played soccer.
had a not bad game.
scored 1.
then made loads of passes..
which hean failed time and time again to receive..
tsk.. haha! jokes jokes game only.
nothing one.

hmm..
then yeap.
got all those lessons loh..
och went berserk in emaths.
hist was borin.. so sleepy.. mr chiu was tired too..
so teach till left abt 10mins of time left..
he stopped. let us slacked. haha!
cool huh? =D
then yea. had bio..
which was ok too.. did worksheet with jeremy koo
then walao..
aft that..
i went play bball.
wait so long i can play.
then bloody monkey lee say sec4 get out.
cannot play..
wtf?!
discrimination! we needa relax know! walao!

then nvm loh.
walao..
then that a_____ .
fuckin very angry at her loh..
ask me follow her go canteen buy drinks.
i ask her treat me green tea.
she at first say okay.
then reach there say cannot..
fuck?! then she buy for her cac friends.
kaobei. then ask me take.
think i your slave?! nabei i not happy !
bloody hell..
still keep sayin wad ~buddy how many yrs?~ fuck !
you just a 2 face bitch!

then nvm.
went for emaths ec.
Mr. Rr ahha!
if you heard him pronounce R you will understand.
damn retarded that teacher..
like wtf uhh..
so basket..
tryin to act one big fuck in the class.
act fierce infront of us.
kaobei lah!
go home lah bastard! think you who?!
then aft the lesson call OCH somemore.
wtf was that suppose to mean?!
pfft.

nvm.
then had no geo ec.
shiok only!
then i was with homies chan, tay and kwok =D
royette was with ellis so i didnt wanna disturb them.
then dunno where royette go le.
nvm lohhh..
stayed with my homies.
had laughs and talks with them.
so now i have food marathon with homies aft Olevel.
oooh and food marathon with sista. but that i dunno..
not sure.. confirm busy with royette. haha ..
hmm..

ooohh! then there were some snacks at the study area.
ms tiu ask us all to finish all.
woo!
then dianne was there.
i ask her who de.
then walao..
give me the ans..
________ .
wtheck.. i speechless.
i replied oohh.
walao lah. i wonder still got who know loh..
tsk.. this sucks.
but yea.
i'm gettin over it lah..
slowly.
i can do it!

hmm..
then yeap.
chan, tay and kwok went home..
i thought mayb i will say for night studies..
but i lonely..
nobody stay de.. so borin..
then nvm loh..
i went home instead..
bought my dinner as mum and sis are in gentin!
woo! shiok lah they not in singapore for 3days! woo!
i happy know?
then they will get stuff back! =D
hmm..
but i wanna go gentin play..
but nvm loh..
next time .
aft my Olevel. ahaha

hmmm..
okok le loh.
i guess i have nth to post le loh.
but yea..
lately i have been feelin very heavy..
as in my heart and mind..
very heavy..
alot of things inside ..
but i cant let them out..
as i dun wanna spoil feelins.
so yea..
i just have to keep it inside me loh..
haiz..
i need to throw them away..

~~eugeneN~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLIS!

walao..
cannot upload pic for sista.
nvm nvm.
anyways..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTA =D

sweet 16 worh!
may all your wishes and dreams come true.
and may you and royette stay strong!
=D
thats all i can say for you.
thou we dun talk much now...
still sista sista alrights?
=D

see you tmrw for your celebration! =D

~~eugeneN~~

i feel so hurt.

haiz..
did not have a good day.
today sucks.
seriously sucks.
nth went well.
haiz..

okok.
i still gotta go on with life..
so i had a stupid bad day..
was not myself..
haiz..
mayb cause the msg from her last night..
haiz..
i dun wish to say here.
you know who and wad you ask me abt it loh..
but yea..
1knife stab into my heart.
but oohh well..
i already know its gonna be lidat.
but yea..

soo..
i'm seriously gonna forget all abt it le.
hmm..
i'll pick myself up.
have done it many times.
and this time too..
i'll do it.

hmm...
alrights.
today..
had all the lessons and all..
and yea.
productive day.
got to learn much stuffs.
and yea.
but not a good day.

hmm..
ec was stupid thou.
english was drawin on my worksheet..
ahaa!
so i didnt do..
dun care lah.
english only..
then ss was slack..
talk nonsense at the back of avt.
then yeap ..
aft that.
with sista and homie chan at canteen.
boonsheng was there too.
then reg and kat joined for kat to go up for chem aft awhile.
slacked. shared "love".
you know wad love i'm talkin abt?.
bet you dun.

this love.
its lidat.

my motto.
Food is Love and Anything that can get me Food is Love.
thus ..
money is love.
food is love.
and wad abt true love you may ask..
true love is but a thing.
a thing which hurts.
but still it brings joy.
i dun have it.
wadeva..

hmm..
then night studies..
wadeva..
did maths.
then lidat loh..

haiz..
i really very not myself.
ahhhhhhhhh!!
is everyone lidat when they have love?..

~~eugeneN~~

wait for me girl.

i'm tired.
soooooo exhausted from all the studyin.
phew.
i need a breather.
but not now..
21more days to Olevel.
have being countin down.
ahhaa

hmm
but anyways.
gettin to take a small breather on sat.
i hope its good.
but surely i'll be some retarded outcast de lah..
but nvm loh.
for you sista.
so i go.
=D
so i needa get present..
dang..
i no money..
haiz..

hmm..
then yeap.
today as usual went to sch.
mornin.
step into class my mood went bad i tell you.
kaobei.
shall not elaborate on it.
then yeap.
had all the fucked up lessons.
all soooo borin i swear in the name of lucifer.
its bloody stupid.
did my graph.
then yea.
ahaa
wadeva..
i think i have nth to blog here loh..
walao..

hmm..
but yea.
ec was ok today.
bio.
did stupid paper.
then done.
then night studies was good.
very productive.
i cleared my doubts abt chem. =D
am i glad.
i wanna do well man!
determination!! ROARS!!
yeap.

ooohhh..
i've found my homies
ahah!
Ziying, Dulcie, Yuxuan, Jiawan
my homies when i'm alone.
ok mayb not really..
but at least i had company when i'm left alone today.
thks homies =D
andandand.
that chan.
gave me a name..
cause she say she adopt me...
guess wad?
Darius Nakamura Chan yujiayingciesha
ahaha!
damn funny!!
and shes being callin me that.
ahaha!
but oohh well.
am i glad they accepted me into the grp.
i was damn bloody loner lah..
lucky lucky.
or i'll be all emo nemo durin ec and the rest of the night..
phew.

hmmm..
i have a bad feelin now..
but i'm ready for it.
i dunno..
argh..
very very very bad feelin ..
shit..
AHHHHHH!!
i needa scream!!
but i cant..
cant let my family know i'm in sucha state..
gotta act all smiley infront of them all..
haiz..
its hard being myself in this house..

hmm..
okok.
i dun wanna comment anything more in this post le.
so yea.
i'm really havin a real real bad feelin..
god..
i'm dyin.
wad are you thinkin girl??
haiz..

~~eugeneN~~