HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLIS!

walao..
cannot upload pic for sista.
nvm nvm.
anyways..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTA =D

sweet 16 worh!
may all your wishes and dreams come true.
and may you and royette stay strong!
=D
thats all i can say for you.
thou we dun talk much now...
still sista sista alrights?
=D

see you tmrw for your celebration! =D

~~eugeneN~~

i feel so hurt.

haiz..
did not have a good day.
today sucks.
seriously sucks.
nth went well.
haiz..

okok.
i still gotta go on with life..
so i had a stupid bad day..
was not myself..
haiz..
mayb cause the msg from her last night..
haiz..
i dun wish to say here.
you know who and wad you ask me abt it loh..
but yea..
1knife stab into my heart.
but oohh well..
i already know its gonna be lidat.
but yea..

soo..
i'm seriously gonna forget all abt it le.
hmm..
i'll pick myself up.
have done it many times.
and this time too..
i'll do it.

hmm...
alrights.
today..
had all the lessons and all..
and yea.
productive day.
got to learn much stuffs.
and yea.
but not a good day.

hmm..
ec was stupid thou.
english was drawin on my worksheet..
ahaa!
so i didnt do..
dun care lah.
english only..
then ss was slack..
talk nonsense at the back of avt.
then yeap ..
aft that.
with sista and homie chan at canteen.
boonsheng was there too.
then reg and kat joined for kat to go up for chem aft awhile.
slacked. shared "love".
you know wad love i'm talkin abt?.
bet you dun.

this love.
its lidat.

my motto.
Food is Love and Anything that can get me Food is Love.
thus ..
money is love.
food is love.
and wad abt true love you may ask..
true love is but a thing.
a thing which hurts.
but still it brings joy.
i dun have it.
wadeva..

hmm..
then night studies..
wadeva..
did maths.
then lidat loh..

haiz..
i really very not myself.
ahhhhhhhhh!!
is everyone lidat when they have love?..

~~eugeneN~~

wait for me girl.

i'm tired.
soooooo exhausted from all the studyin.
phew.
i need a breather.
but not now..
21more days to Olevel.
have being countin down.
ahhaa

hmm
but anyways.
gettin to take a small breather on sat.
i hope its good.
but surely i'll be some retarded outcast de lah..
but nvm loh.
for you sista.
so i go.
=D
so i needa get present..
dang..
i no money..
haiz..

hmm..
then yeap.
today as usual went to sch.
mornin.
step into class my mood went bad i tell you.
kaobei.
shall not elaborate on it.
then yeap.
had all the fucked up lessons.
all soooo borin i swear in the name of lucifer.
its bloody stupid.
did my graph.
then yea.
ahaa
wadeva..
i think i have nth to blog here loh..
walao..

hmm..
but yea.
ec was ok today.
bio.
did stupid paper.
then done.
then night studies was good.
very productive.
i cleared my doubts abt chem. =D
am i glad.
i wanna do well man!
determination!! ROARS!!
yeap.

ooohhh..
i've found my homies
ahah!
Ziying, Dulcie, Yuxuan, Jiawan
my homies when i'm alone.
ok mayb not really..
but at least i had company when i'm left alone today.
thks homies =D
andandand.
that chan.
gave me a name..
cause she say she adopt me...
guess wad?
Darius Nakamura Chan yujiayingciesha
ahaha!
damn funny!!
and shes being callin me that.
ahaha!
but oohh well.
am i glad they accepted me into the grp.
i was damn bloody loner lah..
lucky lucky.
or i'll be all emo nemo durin ec and the rest of the night..
phew.

hmmm..
i have a bad feelin now..
but i'm ready for it.
i dunno..
argh..
very very very bad feelin ..
shit..
AHHHHHH!!
i needa scream!!
but i cant..
cant let my family know i'm in sucha state..
gotta act all smiley infront of them all..
haiz..
its hard being myself in this house..

hmm..
okok.
i dun wanna comment anything more in this post le.
so yea.
i'm really havin a real real bad feelin..
god..
i'm dyin.
wad are you thinkin girl??
haiz..

~~eugeneN~~

anyhow anyway.

okay all.
i'm here again.
today was stupid.
i keep tellin myself to study.
but i dunno wad to study..
was thinkin ..
alot of subs.
i wanna study.
i dunno wad to start on..
then also like dunno how to start on it.
ahaha

hmm..
oohh.
i have it planned out for Olevel maths.
aft science pract Os, there will be like 5days of no exams?
so i'll be chiongin maths .
intensive maths .
so now i'm puttin maths aside.
cause i think i can manage bah for maths.
so i'll put it aside.
then concentrate on other subs now..
like my bio..
holy shits.
and my geo..
haiz..
needa buck up!
and everyone else!!
ahaha

hmm..
so..
today was playin guitar whole day.
i can tune to dropD le!
yays! so can play alot songs.
alot all time low songs.
ahaa =D
hmm..
then yea.
can play weightless.
i like! and dear maria. =D
woo!

okok.
apart from guitars.
i used the comp and just slacked loh..
phone very quiet the whole day.
argh wadeva..
siansiansian!!
haiz..

hmm..
then yeap.
my mind is so mixed up.
i dunno wad i'm thinkin..
but anyways.
its still abt the same thing.
haiz..
life is stupid for me now.
people driftin from my life..
all floatin away..
i'm so alone i feel.
i have nth anymore.
nth.
only myself.
i'm tryin to get out of this hole.
but i cant.
i'm locked up inside.

love is outside this hole.
i want it.
but they dun want me to haave it.
i'm at my wits end.
i dunno wad to do le.
i guess..

i needa get a life.
its not healthy.
thinkin so much.
worryin so much.
being so shit and all..
its not healthy.
i need to get upbeat.
so ..
i dunno..

~~eugeneN~~

wow.

alrights.
i'm here once again to blog.
its been a stupid day i guess.
i woke up damn late loh..
soooo stupid.
walao..
like one whole day wasted i swear.
anyways..
i still have to get on with the day.
used the comp and all..

ooohh.
did i mention this?
i can play the electric guitar le.
got the plug.
just plug into the hifi set.
there! the sound comes out.
so now..
everyday jammin at home.
aha!
cant study de.
hmm..
so yeaps.
so you shld know i played the guitar at home also.
ahaha!
shiok know?
woo!

hmm..
alrights.
slacked at home.
then went for dinner.
lidat loh..
very retarded lah..
hmm..
mayb tmrw goin to work.
get some cash.
=D i wanna get my guitar.
electric guitar.
then jam with bro at home.
ahaha!
shiok leh!
but first get my acoustic first.
more practical.
can bring out jammin at some wuluwulu place with the guys.
and can serenade girls ok!
ahaha!

hmm..
anyways.
20+ days to Os.
wow.
its near uhh?
but yea.
i'm quite ready for it le.
i think.
i just needa clear a few doubts in chem and phys.
then do abit better for emaths.
and yea.
humanities just needa do better for geo.
no more last min man..
ahaha! and yea.
my bio..
i dunno how le..
just lidat loh bio.
i'll do wad i can..
no promise thou..
lucky i have a B3 for chinese le.
can count on it.
=D

hmm..
so now..
its 1am le..
wow. so late..
my gums hurts.
dunno why..
shitbag.
hate this..

ooohh.
MANCHESTER UNITED WON!! 4-3 in your face!
man city is a rip off!!
fuck off city!
and i still love you Wigan! =D

hmm..
ooohhh.
i wanna tell this person.
this sentence.
FASTER STUDY!
STOP WASTING TIME AWAY !
BUCK UP MAN. STUDY NOW THEN CAN ENJOY LE.
this is to royette.
ehhs brother. dun wanna see you retain.
buck up man.

alrights.
i dunno wad to type here anymore.
oohh.
once and once again.
i failed.
=(

~~eugeneN~~

wads the point?

alrights.
today is another day.
thus i wanna blog.
i update blog regularly ehhs?
ahah =D
cause i nth do.
so i wanna blog.
and bloggin is like a routine le.
so yeap.

hmm..
today i woke up late..
retarded.
was suppose to go sch.
and i was plannin to rush to sch..
but..
it poured.
and i decided not to go le.
ahah!
cause rain = no mood.
i know.
its stupid but still..
ahaha

hmm..
then used the comp whole day loh..
then went to grannie's hse.
for dinner.
it was fine.
the usual kicks.
ahaha

then yeap.
she text me today.
was really happy she did.
whenever she text me.
i will have a smile on my face.
its that amazin.
she wont know.
but yea.
you will one day.
=D
how i wish i know how you are feelin.

hmm..
alrights.
tmrw is sun.
which means hari raya.
i wish all malays selamat hari ray.
ahaha!

and..
tmrw shall be studyin!
did no studyin today.
so tmrw loh..
mayb i go out alone to study.
or mayb get some company?
dunno.
i see how..
hmm..
then mon no sch.
i wanna ask her out to study tgt.
confirm she cannot again.
but ooohh wells.
you never know until you try.
and thats wad i'm gonna do.
watch me girl. =D

i'm feelin so tired..
i wanna sleep le.
*yawnsss*
i thinkin of you ________.

~~eugeneN~~

i think.

ohhh well.
its 1am now.
and i'm bloggin.
endin my day soon..
its being long.
and sweaty.
ahaha!

hmm..
alrights.
lets see..
today.
went sch lah..
obviously..
then wad? pon sch meh?!
siao.. dun want pon lah.. waste day only..
ahaha
okok.
so had all the lessons..
i actually went to cat class in the mornin..
whoa.
not bad uhh.
sing song..
stupid only..
ahha
aircon at least. =D
hmm...
then yea uhh.
go back class for lessons and all..
then pe!
woo!

played bball.
i kup hean ball.
not bad!
watch out hean!
although you cant see this.
but yea.
ahaa! xD

hmmm alrights.
then yea..
all the normal lessons loh..
i think i like givin up on bio..
dunno leh.
but i still studyin.
not so hardcore bio thou.
yea.
hmm..
then yea.
aft sch played soccer.
stupid.
then rain..
retarded..
i want play still..
nvm loh.
i went up class then.
for maths ec.
ong not here.
lim took the class.
R. ahah!
funny only..
the mr lim is a total retarded joke.
i swear to lucifer's mum.
he has that sick weird look too..
eeee.
aaha!

alrights.
then class end damn early loh..
i no geo also.
so go canteen lepak
play guitar ..
then eat.
i love eatin btw.
=D my love.
then yea.
lepak more.
i sleep in canteen !
holy cowss...
i sure am tired.
lie down on the bench.
not the long table bench somemore.
the round table one..
walao.
can sleep leh!
i think i sleep lyk 1hr or smth lidat.
wah!
shiok !
wake up the sky dark le.
ahaha!
oohh roy and clemence were there.
ahaha

then yea.
didnt go up for nightstudies.
we talked in the canteen instead.
then the auntie was kind enugh to give us each.
a cup of tehping free.
ahaha =D so nice
thks =D

hmm..
then yea.
went home loh..
lifeless only.
ahaa

soo..
then i msg her.
she not in a good mood.
dun wanna tell me why.
didnt wanna disturb her.
so yea..
hopes sshe alrights le.

ooohh.
tmrw got sch.
goin for chem and hist lesson.
woo!
i shall get my A!
and yea.
ahh..
prelim results were quite ok for me.
but still not very happy.
i needa work harder!
jiayous!
ahha!

hmm..
guess wad.
i suddenly rmb abt things that happened ..
lyk things that happened since the start of this yr.
and its alot.
alot alot of things happened this yr for me.
and its really gr8.
=D
ok lah.
i wanna go le.
byebye.

i really wanna see you smile.

~~eugeneN~~