no this aint wad you think this is.

well. hey.
just got a feeling to come and blog.
have not done this for like dunno how many thousand years already!
buttt.. ooohhh wells!
i feel kinda sad right now..

it sucks.
when you dun have money.
it sucks.
when nobody gives a fuck abt you.
it sucks.
when you dun have any warmth and love at all.
it sucks.
when everything goes against you.
it sucks.
well. everything sucks right now.
family is in a mess.
money is always the case.
then the feeling that i'm gonna lose everyone is here too.
no one is there forever for you.
just rmb that.
its all a lie.

fuck it.
everything is just crap.
alot of times i really wonder why the fuck must i be in this world.
why the fuck must i live?
why?
just to bring agony to myself? to everyone?
do me a favour someone? kill me.

dun even wanna live on.
but well.
i have to aye/?
unless some kill me.
or i just die in an accident.
or mayb. i just sleep. and never wake up.
wow. that would be good.
and when i die, i'll just be dumped into a incinerator plant.
nobody would even know.
or shld i say nobody would even bother caring if i died.

well thats not the case.
fuckk. i dun even know wads wrong with me.
i dun even know wad i'm living for now.
theres no motivation in life.
i have nth to live for. nth at all.
everyday passes and it just seem like any other day.
screw it.

well.
dun wanna say anymore. sooo. bye.
fuck you. fuck them. fuck me.

je m'appelez JUSTIN.
i'm calling myself Justin Bob Nakamura.
ahahah!

how cool.
sooo yah.
its been freaking freakin long since i blog lah!

well sooo everything has been goin fine.
year 2 is gettin fun.
poly is gettin better!
goin for ccas like crazyyyyy with my awesome mates in poly!
rock on!
max tyson kai ray bob ! \m/ hahahaha!

sooo yah.
i did alot of stuffs.
JB concert.
FOW !
i dunno wad i did anyore.
get wasted. haha just kiddin.
xD

hmm.. soo yah.
i dun want type already.
i want play guitar.
ooohh!
team is improving!
i like!
this means we're progressing! nice nice!
gettin rid of the weaker ones. hahaha

hmm.. soo yah!
BYE!

~~JUSTIN BOB~~

well.. i dunno wad you think of me. i dunno wad you think of us. but i just hope that wad i'm feelin is wad you're feeling.

I JUST LOST A FRIEND TONIGHT.
AND MOST LIKELY I WILL LOSE THAT WHOLE GROUP OF FRIENDS.
WELL.

POLY LIFE JUST GOT BETTER HAS IT?
FUCK IT.
I STARTED WITHOUT FRIENDS IN THE SCH.
I END IT WITHOUT FRIENDS TOO.
DONE.

I SHALL NOT DWELL ON IT ANYMORE.

i dun keep grudges . its tiring.
thats why.
i think i'm too nice.
hahaha!
seriously.

hmmm..
being long since i posted aye?
well..
its hols! as you can see. i have nth to do.
and no job as of yet.
which is sad!

fucking fir.
nabei dunno his job lobang where one.
keep saying go work go work.
got lobang and all.
nabei. fuck off lah!

mayb go join ridhwan at jurong bird park!
tgt with roy!
yeap!

but see how first.
cause tmrw goin jurong area.
to look for job with the 2 girls.
i doubt we will find any.
takin into account those 2 sooo fussy. hahahaha!

hmm..
then yah.
hey.
i miss you as a friend.
nth else.
please dun come and think i'm someone you can play with.
byebye!

well..
i'm looking forward to the day i die! how cool!
i'll be looking at myself!
when i'm dead! BAEK!
soo cool! hahahah!
i think i'm the only one who look forward to death.
i'm not even scared of dying now uhh.
nth to lose!

but!
cons are that i have not done alot of stuffs yet!
which is a pity.
but oooh wells.
when i die i die good! ahahahha!

soooo yah
BYEBYE!

i need a girlfriend. hahaha!
you want be my girlf? xD
dun takee me seriously. you can also take me seriously.
BYEBYE!

~~eugeneN~~

how long!

well hellos! its been long!
i'm back!
and yah!
exams are over! =D

sooo yah.
lotsa stuffs happened!
went to alot of places!
did alot of things!
and yah!

=D

soooo yah.
i'm still alive!
too bad haters! hohoho!
love me. xD

sooo yah. byebye!

~~eugeneN~~

GOODLUCK TO ME!

AND EVERYONE HAVING TESTS EXAMS AND SHITS.

BYEBYE!

short hair big balls.

i look like girl seriously.
even my sis say so.
blehhhh =(

no wonder no girl want me.

sooo yea.
thats my short hair!
no one comes to my blog.!
so i can just post my short hair photo here! haha!

hmm..
CNY HAS BEEN BORING!
i just came back from soccer.
it beats stayin home.
haishhh.
family internal conflicts = not much relatives.

sucksss lah!
and only got 1 cousin.
and is a guy.
not hot girl.
suckkksss also.

ooohh wells.
angbao money not muchs.
but i ate alot!
its good and bad.
bad = fat
good = shiokness!

haha! i love eating.

oohh!
finally got a band.
with ryan ridhwan adam roy.
niceee!
cant wait to jam with them.
i wonder how it'll be like.
and they gonna put me lead guitarist.
i suck lah. so sad.
i rather rythm.
no pressure. just play the stuffs.
i cant solo.
i think. heh.

hmmm..
sooo yah.
exams are near.
sheeshhh.
gotta study hard aft cny.
jiayous!

and i gotta jiayous!
in gettin you. hohohoh.
=D

eve of cny.

hellos.
just wanna update abit.

i cut my hair!
i think i look horrible.
but everyone says its okay.
some say nice.
fresh.
handsome.
wadeva shits. haha!

but yah.
nvm

sooo.
its the eve of CNY today!
which means dinner!
nice nice!
i gonna turn fat!
no soccer somemore this week.

hmmm..
soo yah.
i woke up late.
didnt go for IDS class.
shit lahhhh..
dunno how already. =(
me sad you know.
haishhhh.

sooo yah.
i got nth really to say uhh actually.
life has been the same.
sucks.
ooohh wells...
=(

byebye.

~~eugeneN~~

i want you.
you dunno.

no title.

sometimes you just gotta dun care.

sometimes you just gotta care.

sometimes you dun feel like caring

but somehow you end up caring.

this is how fucked up life is.

i'm like ranting to myself over here.
sian one siol
i wish i have someone whom i can just rant to..
but that is hard to find.
cept for my bros .
but theres gotta be a limit.
cause i cant just go on ranting.
thats just plain stupid.

sooo .
life has been pretty okay.
bad.
good.
nth muchs.

lotsa hmwk and projects.
presentations too.
goin to sch.
wasting my life away.
i cant wait for the hols.
blaaaaa.

i'm so tired of everything.
girls are sooooo weird.
seriously.
haishhh.

i dun feel like typing le.
byebye!

~~eugeneN~~

hectic.

well hello.
coming here to just type smth down.
cause its fri.

hmmm..
sooo i had a very weird week indeed.
sch.
been a fuckin ass.
lotsa work to chiong.
and exams are like 5weeks away.
thats 1 month to study.
lets buck up!
no more shitty results like last sem!
pull my GPA up to 3.2 at least this sem! =D

soo yeap.
then had my fair share of heartache.
always turns out this way.
i'm used to it.
sooo i'm quite okay lah actually.
just alil fucked up.
ooohh well!
if its not meant to be yours its not yours.

but i lost smth that never really was mine.
but it hurts.
=(

i'm strong. no worries.
heheh.

well..
sooo then yah.
i have to do my POA!
have presentation next week!
study MES!
study EHM!
make full use of my time!

ooohh did i mention?
my bro got job lobang!
at sentosa.
i think traffic usher or smth.
1.2 k or smth lidat aft 10days!
chinese new year period! \m/
i dun mind.
cause the money i'll be earning is evener more and better
than the money i'll be collecting. hehe

but need wait confirm first.
if get le i fuckin happy!
but the working time abit cui uhh.
8pm to 3am!
shagg one confirm next day.
somemore if got sch.
that one jialat.
but nvm!
i strong! xDD
hohoho

hmm.. then yah
once get that 1.2k i can enjoy abit le! =D
save up 1k.
200 go spend! YAY!
shopping.
eatting.
jamming!
HAPPY!
SO HOPEFULLY GET JOB!
ooohh and can get tix to JB concert!
if the leaked news is really true!
=DD

okayyy.
soooo.
i dun think i can anything more to type.
i guess.

oohh.
who want be my girlfriend? hahahaha!
just joking. xD

come come. talk to me.
i have alot prepaid now.
help me use up.
will expire one. =(
tyvm!
bye!

~~eugeneN~

I JUST WANT TO SAY I DUN LIKE ONE WORD TEXT ! ! !
I DUN LIKE.

merry go round.

why am i still blogggin here?
not your prob. hahahhaa!
jokin.

hmm.. soo yah.
its finally the end of the first sch week! phew!
lets refresh okay?
MON. PON. hahahahhahaa!
that was epic. first lesson of 2011 pon already.
GG! autocad just dunno how do!
anyhow do send in.

tues! MES! i went okay! i super goodboy. heheh
wed had IDS! make robot! okay only.
the robot need reproduce also right!
so i gave it a very IMPORTANT organ. HAHA!
its black somemore. longer. hahahahhahahaha

okay. its very dirty. xD

then THURS. S&W!
i just could not come and meet you.
in sucha sweaty disgusting dirty state. so sorry! =(

fri. which is TODAY!
i meant ytd. its past 12am. -_-
it was super sleepy i swear!
but i managed to get onto the shuttle bus! yay! free!
then yah.
all lessons damn sleepy.
then go home then soccer.
i swear i damnnnnnn paiseh lah!
i was like literally falling asleep while standing up lah! omf.
seriously damn cui.
shagggg like heckkk!

then yah. had soccer. and dinner with the guys.
and a walk to bpp and bus-ed home.

soo now here i am.
1am now.
wad to do?
guess i'm just gonna die .
BYE!

~~eugeneN~~
i wish you could be mine. no one else but mine.

it feels like deja vu.

hey.
i'm not feeling that good.

its feels like dejavu all over again from 2years back.
confusing shit.
same like then.
affections. with no real assurances.
its confusing.

why am i always the one?
the one being in this kinda situation?
i just want a girl who loves me.
but they can be so confusing.

well.
i just hope you dun do wad she did to me then.
its a nightmare that caused a scar in me.
and i still rmb till now.

sooo.
i needa just.
i dunno.
i needa play soccer to clear me mind.
tmrw! and fri!

~~hobo~~

first day of sch. NOT

I PON MY FIRST DAY OF SCH!
sad sad!
now i dunno how to do my autocad!
and i spent fuckin' 20bucks in 1day.
this is how i spend.

hmm.. sooo yah
first day pon already.
i hope yuxuan helped me to sign already.
or anyone else.
hmm hopefully!

sooo tmrw will be my first day.
like everyone else! hahaha!
back to sch for everyone. this sucks
i needa study hard for this term!
only 6weeks!
jiayoussss!
i can do it!
and then hols ! and then i can play earn money!

and nowwwww! i needa do my autocad!
byebye!

~~eugeneN~~
if only you would know. do you feel the same?

1/1/11 2011 bitches!

hey bitches! its 2011!
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

there! for your 2011 ! FUCK. hahhahaha!
i'm evil. yes i am.
i'm not actually.
i needa be MORE EVIL!
>xD

anyways a happy new year to you!
its 2011!
and this blog has survived!
long enugh. hehe.

sooo yah.
just wanted to say a happy new year.
2010 recap!

its being a , lets say hardcore emotional year.
gone thru muchs stuffs!
likkkkeee.

results day.
putting in my choices for poly course.
working at the airshow.
working at cartel.
hermanoz.
knowing more people!
goin to poly for the first time.
knowing even more ppl!
then had all the fucked up shits happening.
where no money.
i gotta starve myself.
walking home everyday from NP.
being lonely.
no friends at times.
dunno where everyone went.
=( just thinking of all those made me sad.
but theres good stuffs too.
like i finally scored this year.
i assist this year.
i improved in terms of guitar and soccer skills.

but yea.
theres moreeee to the list!
but yea.
just wanna say.
gonna put all those behind me.
my memories.
and just start this new year fresh!

soooo yah.
2011!

i wanna get a new guitar. like wad i said last year. hahaha!
i wanna go JAPAN!
i wanna get better in guitar and soccer!
i wanna EATTTTTT EATTTTT EATTTTT MORE!
i wanna get a girlfriend! <3
i wanna freestyle rap!
i wanna get good results!
i wanna have more money!
i wanna have a GOODLIFE!
i'm gonna work on my island.

thats all.
i think.
shld be.
but i bet half of that i cant do it. hahahahaha!
jokes.

i'm sucha joke!
bye!
happy new year to you you you ! <3
but no one here. hahaha!

~~eugeneN~~

long awaited post! anyone?

HELLO!
I'M GONNA DO THIS WHOLE POST IN CAPS! AHAHAHA!

SOOO BACK AFT ALONG WHILE!
BEEN NO CHANGES HERE!
CAUSE NO ONE COMES HERE! HEEEE

HMM..
SOOO CHRISTMAS PASTED.
AND I SPENT MY CHRISTMAS EVE WITH POLY FRIENDS.
okay wait. no more caps.

sooo yah.
had steamboat during christmas. -.- wts right. haha
but okay lah!
enjoyed.
at weikuan hse there steamboat and all.
gamble somemore.
vodka.
supper. beer.
watch movie in the room. slack then home.
we ton uhh. haha
then yah

but actual christmas day.
DID NOTHING!
seriously..
soo boring!
then yeahh

hmm..
ohya!
i had my eco camp like last week also.
quite okay.
just that soo lonely!
they all come in one whole class! sucks!
soo hard to make friend when everyone there knows each other!
and i'm like the only stranger! =(
butttt i still made friends lah. hahaha
i got to sleep in underwater world!
swear its a good experience ! ahha
was expecting some paranormal stuffs!
but dun have! =(
wad a letdown. ahaha

hmmm.. then yeah.
still got wad uhh?
oohhh!
gathering of phs and aes clique. haha
which is not everyone who went japan came.
usually only the usual me hean boonsheng and the girls
which also the usual ones. hhaha
had steamboat! again!
omf. ahhaa
and the steamboat not nice one! eeeeee
dun like lohhhh!
but oohh wells!

then photos photos. gift exchange!
i tio yvonne rocher. ahhaa!
=( i want something solid! like toys. ahha
nvm lah. haha
then home! aft all the photos and craziness. not really. heeee

still got wad huh?
hmmmm..
let me find some photos and upload it here uhh. haha






thats all. i'm lazy. ahahha
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

wadup?!?!

wadup fucka out there!!!
this aint no rubbish!
fuck you allllll! =D

okay.
hi.
hello.

finally termbreak!
and i have the time to come here to blog okay!
cause no need study for CT le!
for now.
next year back to sch.
2nd term.
sian !

buuuttt!
now just slack!
do my guitar job.
50 every week.
nice only!

hahahha!

hmmm..
sooooo.
hermanoz not doin well!
wtf.
this team really like no hope only.
but ohhh wells!
wad to do.
everyweek match no training.
no physical.
how get better?
ohh wells!
i not capt. nth to say!

okay!
sooooo!
i just wanna say.
a hello.
and yah.
bye!

~~eugeneN~~

life goes on!

well!
i'm not blogging as frequently as last time.
just lazy.
and busy.
and no mood to blog lah.
alot projects. and CT coming soon.
gotta study for it.
boringggg!

hmm.
well!
one thing!
sunday match went good!
at least for the team.
i think i did very badly! =(
we won overall!
8-2 for this match.
nice game HERMANOZ!

but!
i didnt score. sadlyyy...
was soooo wanting to score!
see everyone scoring like nth lidat!
i also want the actions!
dropping back down to get the ball.
but ! no!
it was just not mine for the taking!
=(

hmm..
but had an assist for hongteck to score.
and shots saved by keeper.
and far wide
damnnnn!
try harder next match!
i wanna play striker again!
shiok! no need defend!
even when i want to.
they just me to get out of there. ahahahaha!
sooo yea!
good! =D

well!
soooo train harder!
improve more!
SCORE MORE!
YES!

okay!
sooooooooo..
i dunno if i shld go to the camp..
gotta pay 25bucks thou..
damnn thats alot..
dunno if i shld..
mayb not..
haizzz,.
why life so hard?!
=(
miserable life.

anddddd..
wad more shld i type here?
hmm.
i love Jennette McCurdy? ahha =D <3
shes just so awesome! \m/

andddd.. yah.
i wanna do a real paranormal investigation!
like seriously!
start with AES!
good spot.

sooo.. yah.
for now.
i'm just studying.
playing my soccer.
guitar.
and yah.
projects and all.
cant wait for the term break.
go earn some cash.
and get myself a guitar.
ESP LTD!

and yea.
keep rocking guys and babes!
bye!

~~eugeneNakamura~~

sometimes you just gotta do it.

well.. long time didnt blog le!
sooo yah.
finally rmb i had this blog.
and sooo yah.
decided to do this.

hmm.. sooo..
nth muchs abt this fucked up life of minee.
everyday the same.
wake up.
sch.
home.
slack.
well..
almost everyday.
except fri got soccer.sat got soccer.
at least i dun die from obesity! aahaha!

well...
soo yea.
sunday got match!
and..
i dunno if i'll play well not.
i hopefully do so!
not gonna let anything to demoralise me!
not gonna repeat it again.
dun want to.
stay high on spirit!
and do it!
score a goal !
i will!
HOPEFULLY!

okay!
sooo!
i have a confession !
i just LOVE JENNETTE McCURDY !!
shes just so lovely dun you think so ? =D ahahaa
but i'm not obsessed with her!
ahahaha

watching iCarly!
and its damn funny!
downloading season 2 at the moment!
nice!

and yah!
poa is actually not bad!
quite fun! just needa write ALOT!
but not bad! =D

and all the CT and projects coming soon!
siann!
next week shall start on all the projects le!
no more slacking!
and do some more studying!

sooo yea
thats all uhh..
nth more to type.
bye!
very sleepy!

~~eugeneN~~

you're beautiful

well..
hellos!
posting more now.

sooo yahh..
its a hol tmrw! =D
no sch!
play soccer!
thats my life right now.
no sch = play soccer.
abit no life. but still got life. hahaa!

hmm..
soo yea.
today had IS lessons.
idea jumpstart was fun!
building that paper rollercoaster!
we had a bra coaster!
the 2funnels we made looks like bra and they were so close tgt. hahaa!
D36! ahahahaha!

hmm.. then yah.
our marble had a long ride!
14secs longest! woo!
then yah.
had s&w aft that!

did not have a good feeling initially..
but actually it was not that bad!
i thought they will be some ass.
but okay uhh. quite nice .
coach not bad also.
then yah!
girls from the C01 actually joined street soccer uhh! haha!
surprised!
and its that girl! hahaha! xD

ssoo yah.
street soccer not bad.
and i realise this.
i think i have anxiety attack.
quite a mild one.
always will have this nervous attack wheneva i like ..
how say? in situations like this uhh.
always like soccer situation.
playin against others.
start of a match.
or yah.
always will have ALOT of butterflies in my stomach.
then will feeling like vomitting and dizzy.
then vision not that good.
cant breathe well also.
always one.

thats wad happened today also.
but not that serious one today.
i played.. okay i think.
just all the loose pass and bad touches.
and the bad bad shot.
high ball passed to me.
first touch nice.
under pressure.
shoot. far wide. sian! ahha
but yahhh..
okay lah i think.

hmm.. then yah. home aftwards.
well.. thats all i did today. nth muchs one.

tmrw soccer!
but in the morning i shld finish up my interior design hmwk!
need draw a room.
sooo mahfan!
need follow fucking dimensions and all..
sian!
can go blind man!

well..
soo i think thats all for bloggin now..
dun feel like typing le.
sooo yah.
bye!

~~eugeneN~~